State of the Penis Address II.

Research and papers and things I simply can not focus on at all right now.

I’m still tugging, though I can’t say that I’m being particularly regular about it. Some weeks I’ll tug every day. Other weeks, I’m simply too stressed to worry about it. I can’t say I mind.

Progress, as expected, is slow. I recall months ago when I noticed something in the locker room. After a workout, I’d get naked in preparation for a shower. I shower naked, you know. I always pull my skin forward in my boyundies, so I always have full coverage when I drop my boyundies. What I noticed is that it would stay covered from the walk to the scale, to the water fountain, and into the shower. It wouldn’t retract until I actually started washing. It would probably retract until I had barely some roll-over, if any.

I almost want to pay attention to this more, because I think the time it stays covered is increasing. Otherwise, it’s hard to have actual visual indications. Masturbation has been as consistently pleasing as it’s been for months. Though, that’s been more a matter of me being psychologically ready for arousal. If that makes any sense. Putting myself in that erotic mindset. Pretty much once I get some precum flowing and my glans gets nice and juicy, everything starts feeling really nice.

Occasionally, I will glance at a clock and challenge myself to last longer. I think my fear of losing an erection is unfounded. Consistently, I’m able to hold my arousal for that extra five or ten minutes. Though, as the minutes pass, man, it makes me want to orgasm more and more. It’s a good thing, makes me want it. I prefer when orgasm finds me, rather than me just wanking to get off. Handy when I want to sleep better, but I prefer more loving masturbation. You know, put the love in self-love.

So, erections are good, pleasure’s been good, foreskin is coming along. As for ejaculatory velocity, I’m taking the attitude that if I’m going to do kegels, I’m going to do them regardless of whether I decide to or not. (Or won’t, regardless.) So I’m already doing them through the day to various set/reps. I’d swear it causes a tiny bead of precum to be emited from my urethra.

Normally warm weather forces me to stop tugging. But that was back when I tugged down my leg. Nocturnal upward tuggification means I will be able to tug through the summer. This excits me. I almost want to GOTO sleep right now so I can start tugging for the night. More foreskin = more penis = good. I need more penis.

I await the day I wake up and realize I don’t need to tug anymore. Screw you, unconsented circumcision, I will have my foreskin and like it!

Ah, more stuff nobody will read. (I jest, I swear.) I need to #2.

DateATimmy VI: Would you like to date me?

Precum is delicious. *nods*

If I had a gym, it would be wasted on me. I don’t think people truly understand when I say I’m lazy. Given, I’m rarely sitting still, but if it feels too much like exercise, I won’t want to do it. Won’t do it. If it feels like work, it’s not an option. There is a gym downtown that I could go to, but that costs money and I’m just not up for that. I kind of like being able to eat.

I know nothing about all these various forms of exercise you speak of. All I know is, if I set out with the intention of exercising, I’ll simply sit around finding excuse after excuse not to do it. Thankfully, I’m quite an active person; all the things I do don’t class as exercise, officially. And ok, so it’s not “working out” like I would be at a gym, but it works for me. I found that in the (almost) week since I quit smoking, my fitness level has already increased dramatically. Although I think I made myself ill on Friday night, by sitting outside in the frost for 5 hours. Oh well, it was fun, and it certainly helped clear my lungs. That’s always good, to get rid of the smokey tarry gunk. /tangent

Web of bullshit? Ok.

All good. Facts are facts. I’m still working out what I can and can’t say with you, I suppose. Same as everybody, there are lines drawn. I’m not so good at seeing where they are.

I did, a while back. Contrary to popular belief, I try not to be presumptuous. I will, however, scamper off to retrieve aforementioned details, and will IM you shortly.

ryn: I like not having elastic choking my bikini line for once! It gets… suffocating