Morning of 2-14-6

I get so bogged down in anxiety that I can’t see myself in the mirror. Let alone seeing the mirror.

I don’t think I’ve ever shut down this badly. Not like this. I’ve had worse depression, for sure. This is just annoying more than anything, like waking up to the same shit every single day. Maybe because I don’t see a difference between any of them. Perhaps.

I preach moderation, but I’m not exactly living it. I can do better than this.

When my mood recovers, I have an amusing entry to write that Heather inadvertantly inspired. I’ve already written it in my mind. *taps head*

Cliff is online once in a blue moon. He IMed me last night. I told I’m kind of in flux, I’m sorry for being absent, and that I miss him. He said he misses me, too. I think I needed that affirmation, even though I know it.

It’s like everything lumps together into one giant thing, and I shut down, unable to make a first step.

But, I’ve expressed that a million times before. I hate apathy.

Whatever. I have to get dressed/eat now.

*hugs* Sowwy Timmy. Hope you get through it.

A mental health is OK once in awhile, you just have to be careful not to string too many of them together.

i know how that feels being all depressed like.. Ive been on and off like that since November.. I do hope you get to feeling better.

So I have dial up and once pictures start uploading (or downloading, I don’t know I’m not a computer person) it takes forever to minimize the screen. I see you have an entry yesteray and click on it only to find that it’s Timmy-nudies. Of course, I can’t get it minimized in time and my daughter asks why there’s a naked guy on the computer. I’m going to need a Pepper warning from now on. 🙂

*hugs* Depression really sucks. I hope you get better soon. I’m always here for ya.

i miss you too.