Look, my hair’s growing back.

Still don’t know what to do with myself. I slept okay and woke up like a rock around 8:30 AM. Is it only noon? How boring.

As it’s been, I don’t know what to do with myself. If I had a nickle for how many times I’ve said that. Of course, if I ask for help, I’ll be told to do something. So, what’s the point? As I always seem to, I’d rather vegetate and wallow in my own self-misery than do something about it. Do. Nothing to do.

I feel like calling Cliff, but I fear he’ll reject me. Even though he never has. I keep thinking people have their own lives that somehow don’t involve me or can’t involve me.

I had a bagel with cream cheese for breakfast. I talked myself into it. It sounded good, it tasted good. Small victories.

Thinking there’s no other way without some drastic external force changing something – that’s depression alright. Of course, I’d end up resenting said external force. I’m always resistant to any change, it seems. Can there really be that many people that sit, staring at nothing, numbing their mind away? Such is a sad life we live.

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I heart your hair 🙂

I love long hair on men. I wish my boyfriend had his graphic design job that he wants so he could grow his hair longer. Not into the piercings or the tattoos…but the long hair is mesmerizing.

January 29, 2006

Nipple! (pinch) You have hair like my husband did when we were first dating. He cut it, though, because he knew I wanted him to. I was like that back then. ryn: I like to ignore my body until I’m very hungry, then get take out and consume way too many cals. That’s pleasurable for me. Food can be orgasmic when you’re starving. I’ll do better, though. Things will really pick up once I start >

ryn: I know she’s 32. I think I said the same thing to you as I’m saying to him. Or I thought it. I love your hair. *wishes for some curls* Spidey’s ponytail is approaching mid-back right now. It’s time to donate to locks of love again.

January 29, 2006

>excercising again. I need a new yoga mat for starters. I might eventually start working out at the Y again. I used to do this aerobic/strength training combo class that was pretty cool. Kicked my ass proper. And, yes, I will always be luscious. Skinny is for lattes. xxx

*eats your face* sooo yummy

January 29, 2006

Yay for your hair growing back!! 😀 Bonus nipple shot. LOL!

January 29, 2006

Your hair looks good. I liked it really long. I liked it short. I like it now. You’re just pretty :)Samie’s

January 29, 2006

Cat Stevens? Okay, no. *giggles* Meanwhile, totally caught off guard by the nipple shot. *smirks* Isn’t that a White Stripes song? Something about not knowing what to do with himself. I don’t know. I’m rambling. Rambler out.

I KNOW I’m not the only one that thought this was a pube entry.

January 29, 2006

I like the random nipple pic. *giggles* I’d love to run my fingers along your scalp! (especially since I’m sure I wouldn’t be able to as easily once it grows past your shoulders again, hehe)

January 29, 2006

lovin’ the hair! And I love me some bagels and cream cheese 🙂 oh and ryn: Glad I could help 😉

*blinks* Nipple shot was a bit out of place there dude!! RYN: Me-yow! *grins*

Oh and I do so love your hair – mine went straight on Friday for some reason but today it’s back to … whatever it is normally!

You have ALOT of hair Timmy. 🙂