Let’s not make a habit out of this.

Openned by myself this morning. Woke up at 4:40. Rolled in Panera around 5:05. Steve shows up ten minutes later. Jenny told me last week that if I finished everything by 7 AM, I was in good shape. I had to rearrange the dishes because whoever closed last night was incompetent. Put up the pastries. Bagels. By the time I sliced the bread, It was 7:20. Thankfully, Susan was in by then. She’s good help.

By 10 AM, I was tired. I took a break and realized I had been there five hours. “Wow, that went FAST.”

Steve continues to flatter me. I’ve been working there just over a month and he’s already talking about me becoming a trainer down the road. ..*laughs*

The coffee exploded twice on me today. First because a bean got caught. Second time because the tap was open. I knew I should have reflexively washed it. If I just do everything myself, I don’t screw up.

By noon, I was exhausted. I’m simply not a morning person. I was less tired when I worked 10 AM to close that one day.

I was so tired that I had a shot of espresso. It tasted like beer, to me. One of the most bitter things I’ve ever had. I took Susan’s advice and added hot milk. You know, the basis of a latte. Strange as it sounds, the milk made it taste WORSE. I can drink espresso like I do cough medicine. Just down it and absorb how horrible it tastes.

Steve let me go home a half hour early. He noticed I was tired, and he otherwise wants to shave my hours so I don’t go over forty again. We had enough people, and seriously, I was BEAT. Besides, half the time, the opener leaves at 1:30, anyway. No biggie.

I came home and drew myself a bath. Unfortunately, I think my sister took a shower sometime this morning. As such, the water wasn’t hot enough. Ugh. I enjoyed it as much as I could, anyway. Sipped the Jones Peach that I swiped. Let my ears fall underwater while Underworld boomed.

After drying off and putting clothes on, I napped. I woke up maybe an hour later. And yeah um, boring stuff. I watched Simpsons with my sister. She got groceries. I didn’t request anything, but she was thoughtful enough to get me some chimichangas. Noting it had been a good 8 hours since I last ate, I popped two in the small oven.

I’m relaxed. ….I’m more awake, now that the sun is down. As always. Still, I’m glad to work mornings. Frees up my evenings. Plus most of the people that work nights are incompetent. I’ve been falling asleep better, but I still need to GOTO bed at a time that allots me six hours.

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January 26, 2005

See, I TOLD you that time goes by faster in the morning! Oh wait, maybe that wasn’t you I told? Ho hum.

January 26, 2005

I think whats moslty stopping me from getting up and moving forward is fear, fear of failing or getting hurt. Someday I will be brave enough to move on but as for now I’m just insecure about myself, and life. ps. thanks for talking to me, you have no idea how much that means to me.

January 26, 2005

I’m not a morning person either. Subbing for kids at 8 am should be interesting… yikes.

Is the switch up high enough on the water heater? I used to switch it very, very high at my parents’ house. My mother said it was too high and would turn the f*cker down. I like hot baths and showers. Lukewarm only in the summer. My mother must have the nerve endings of a newborn baby regarding every sensation. Dear God, never send me back there to live with them, ever again, please!

it feels good, putting in a good day, huh? it makes being at home more of a reward.

One more thing… Is the tub there a plastic-type insert or a real cast-iron thing? Here, in this apartment, built in the sixties, it’s honest-to-God cast-iron. My past seven rental houses and two owned houses had that formica-composite body – easier to heat. Cast-iron takes longer, of course. Adding to the chill factor. Just a thought.

January 26, 2005

I had working in the mornings. blah… makes me an asshole.

January 26, 2005

I should be seeing a psychiatrist but the thing is I dont have insurance and dont have the money for one. I’m gonna see what I can do though cause I do believe that talking to someone could really help me. ps. no I havnt seen fight club.

January 26, 2005

RYN: Do I get a prize?

January 26, 2005

thanks, I’ll definently do that.

January 26, 2005

Bath…I have bath envy.

Loved working in the bakery at the grocery store, in at 6 done at 2. Meh, sure do miss it.

Ick. Making people get up that early should be a federal offense. Well, OK, not really, but one of my life goals is never to have a job that requires me to get up before noon. I don’t do mornings.

I make the coffee when I get to work. 4 or 5 scoop brew. If the women get to it before I do, they make this über-weak stuff which looks like dirty tap water.

January 27, 2005

You and your baths 🙂 They amuse me so…

January 27, 2005

I hope she remembered sour cream for those chimichangas!!!! Sorry i havent been up with noting, ive been reading but so drained this week my brain dosent work properly, im convinced. Not that it ever did. But thats my story and im sticking to it!