Le sigh.

I didn’t want to do anything, so I didn’t. I took a nap in the van. Upon my second wakening, I let my mind wander just a little more. Lots of negative thoughts were popping up, and I just wasn’t in the mood to impress anybody.

Regardless, it hit me that I seem to tie happiness to whether I do my homework waaay too much. As if that’s the only way. Well, no. Probably just another mental block to get past. I’ll try not to feel bad, but I just don’t like how today’s going.

i think you need your own swift-kick-in-the-ass(tm). 😀

So now it’s up to you how you want this day to end. Either “eh”, or “I recovered nicely from an “eh” morning.” You know? Think of a nice reward for yourself that you can look forward to after doing some work. Go to a diner again, or a park, or whatever, and just review stuff. You can make this better if you want it to be better. Smile. Resolve that you’re not going to feel “eh” anymore.

You can do this. It’s just a question of saying “No, I’m determined NOT to let this day suck. I refuse to let it happen.” And then it won’t. *hug* I love you–

PS: “Lots of negative thoughts were popping up, and I just wasn’t in the mood to impress anybody.” It’s not about impressing anyone. It’s about whether or not YOU want to feel badly, or not. That’s really what it boils down to. Our emotions can either be dictated by external things, or we can gain a degree of internal control. It just comes back to our attitude, and practice.

Pixel

October 10, 2005

Bust through the wall, Timmy! Blargo!

Meh – sometimes we just need to wallow for a bit *pats your head* It’s otay Timmy