T’was a dark and stormy night

Drip..Drip..Drip..Drip, the rain falls outside my window. It accompanies the keys on the keyboard as I type this entry. The sounds of the Chieftians come out of the computers speakers and I hear the lovely voice of Joni Mitchell singing her haunting composition Magdalene Laundries with that great line about Prostitutes and Destitutes echoing in my brain. When I went out to the car for my book the roar of the ocean’s surge drowned out the noise of the passing traffic. This is the New Jersey shore on a stormy night. The message is clear to those who listen. Mother nature dwarfs all of us and we should recognize our insignificance in the face of the Storm Gods.

Well friends this is the night all of us have been waiting for with the anticipation of a child for Santa’s arrival. Or of having a tooth extracted. Without Novocain. Tonight the anticipated interview by Barbara Walters is to be aired in a two hour special. I couldn’t wait for tonight so I could happily avoid the show and instead watch Big East B Ball and Rutgers vs. Pitt. I would love it if I read tomorrow that the Neilsen rating group could not find one person who watched the interview. Who cares????

The house is silent. “She who must be obeyed” is out with her friend at a movie and I am alone in the house. I am comfortable with solitude because even though she is out she manages to permeate the very fiber’s of the house and myself with her essence. For years I was in the grip of a disease that recognized no other person except me. Alcoholism robbed me of myself and caused me to keep all others at arms length lest they intrude. Alcohol was a jealous lover and wanted me all to itself. If I hated my self and what I had become how could I love anyone else? Today I am conscious of what is good and essential in my life. I pause to reflect on my past as I move to reaching double figures in sobriety. One day at a time sounds trite but has never been more true. I had the privilege to read another persons struggle today and it was like staring into a mirror. God bless you Katherine because even if you are not aware of it I got through another day because of you.

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