POMPOUS SELF IMPORTANT RAMBLINGS

There is an old wives tale about March coming in like a Lion ect. But this one came in like a raging Bull with a red hot poker up is rear. I only hope that this will result in a beautiful second half of the month. I am going with my wife and another couple that have been our friends since High School for a Concert and Getaway Hotel package this weekend. I like the couple routine because it is good for my wife. She normally orders a glass of wine at dinner when we go out alone but does like to sometimes to order a full bottle and this gives her the chance. My not drinking has naturally impacted on others as well as myself. I no longer give it a second thought but others do. Our friend, Patricia once asked me if it troubled me to sit at dinner and be the only one drinking soda. I asked how she would feel if we went to a Ben & Jerry’s Ice Cream Store and everyone else ordered Sundays and she had a glass of water. ” I firmly believe that most people who are not Alcoholic do not understand what being an Alcoholic entails. It is outside their experience and beyond their comprehension. Have you every tried to describe the color blue to someone who is blind? I believe that when a drink of alcohol enters my blood stream that an immediate chemical reaction takes place and paralyzes the “Choice” gland. One drink and I have lost the ability to choose,: I must continue until the money, time or supply is exhausted. Tell me that I will lose my wife, house , job, health, family or self respect and it will not sway me. I think of an old comedy skit by Jack Benny where he was accosted by an armed robber who demanded his money or his life. Jack cradled his chin in his hand and remained silent until the robber demanded indignantly to know what it would be. With perfect timing Jack replied” I’m thinking.” Me too. If I want to get my wife nervous all I have to do is start a sentence, Honey I was thinking…..

I have a niece who also suffers from the abuse of alcohol and other mind altering substances. I love her greatly and know what she is enduring. Within my family people have asked me to save her and there is nothing I can do except let her know I love her and will help her when SHE HERSELF WANTS TO BE HELPED. Not one minute before can I do anything constructive. The program of A.A. works through attraction. I can let her know I understand and care but the first step must be hers. I can only hope that it comes soon.

Today was a day that passed without any mind blowing events. I like that because I have found that great heights or great bottoms only mean that I am on a roller coaster ride. I can do with a hefty dose of level ground

Today 80% (too cold).