ACCELERANTS

I was at my AA Home Group meeting last night when a 21-24 young woman sat down net to me. She, Bernadette,is a Niece of mine. She is a very tragic case and tears at my heart. He family situation was good having a Mother and Father who loved her dearly and she never wanted for anything. She attended the best of schools and upon Graduation from High was rewarded with a new Audi rag top. The signs of her problems had been showing even then for those whose vision was not clouded by denial. I did not learn of them until much later as I was not in the family grouping. Later I heard the tales and even saw her at a few Meetings but she was way to far gone by them but not gone too far to stat to look inward. She was staying out for weeks at a time and even moved in with a drug dealer. Relatives asked me to help but there was nothing more that I could do because she did not want any help. Sad as it is one cannot force recovery upon anyone. Looking at B. last night I suspect she is on Meth rather that Coke by ways her looks have been impacted.

She was sobbing at the meeting and very emotional.I gave her my phone number and asked her the basic AA question ” Are you ready yet ? “

Last week she drove to my son’s house to visit her Grandparents. They were up from Florida for a visit. My son heard a noise out outside and he found her in his drive way. She was half out and half in the car vomiting and weeping. My son ust told me this when I mentioned seeing her at the meeting. He asked me what I would have done and was shocked when I answered ” Called the Police. For her and the Publics safety.”

I hope against hope that she has reached the place where pain of her addiction becomes to bad to endure. I hope she chosses recovery as her option