My legs are tired from running in circles.

• I’m tired of this… This running in circles.  He doesn’t call me anymore, and I thought it was because of SpK.  Now I know he’s just writing me off because of *unknown.* 
• He told me we would go get coffee the night I got back.  He didn’t answer my phone calls.  He didn’t respond to my text message.  I haven’t talked to him since, and granted it’s only 2 days, but I’m growing tired of this.  She was home.  When he went home, he visited her.  I had to go into his work for him to talk to me. 
• I’m trying so hard to make it look like I’m not trying, because nothing is working so far… Before I wondered why I was doing it.  I’ve never wondered if it was worth it before today, this morning at 8:30, awake 2 and a half hours before I have to work.  No response… No call… Not even a hello.  I can’t fucking stand it anymore.  I’m tired of it… and I’m wondering if it’s worth it anymore.
• There was a time when I would say yes, no matter what, this is worth it.  But now I’m tired of setting aside time for him when he doesn’t respond or recripracate.  I’m tired of crying myself to sleep for more than just him, and I’m tired of not feeling close enough to him to tell him why I’m crying myself to sleep.  There was a time when he would know without me asking…  There was a time when I trusted him blindly.  There was a time it was worth it.

• I’m not so sure anymore…

*Post Script*
You know it’s bad when your friends on maplestory, who have never met you, and never see what you look like, ask you if you’re okay because you seem a little depressed today…
Is it that obvious?  Even through words on a video game?