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January 9, 2005

Welcome!

January 12, 2005

Welcome. I suppose your first entry is a start.

*wonders how she ^ found this diary*

^Because I know this person.

January 17, 2005

Welcome to OD and thanks for your kind note. I think you will enjoy this forum very much.

RYN: Turn on the settings for private notes, okay?

Do you have yahoo or AIM? IM me sometime. Yahoo: belladonna8881 AIM: Paandora11

Didn’t I leave you a note earlier in response to yours? Did you erase it or did I not save it? I do that alot when someone comes into my office area. I have to close out the screen…

My previous note (that I never left) referred to Amy. I can not see what I previously saw in her years ago. She’s blocked from my diary and I am blocked from hers. You know, I work in an office full of ladies. And OD can be like that at times. A big group of women. You put them in a small clique/area and bullshit is bound to arise. The only difference is that I knew/know NOW when to step

back and let everything go. I’ve seen Wende’s, Amy’s and other people’s notes about me. I’d be lying if I said it didn’t bother me, but at the same time, -I- know who I am and that’s all that matters in the ‘real’ world. Don’t let her get to you. She’s not worth your time. At all.

And someone once told me: If they’re stupid enough to believe such crap, then they’re too stupid to be worth my time, patience, energy and caring. Actually, that was my therapist telling me that in reference to a previous employer.

February 6, 2005

RYN re asparagus: You are correct. And though it’s entirely too early in the game for any such activity (for me, anyway), I do believe it’s officially off the menu.

RYN: My goodness. You’ve heard of that place?! Wow. RYON: Yeah. That’s what I’m going to try to do today. I sat and thought about it long and hard last night. I’m still upset, but you’re exactly right. I do/did feel less valuable.

February 14, 2005

RYN: I’m so glad you finally accept notes! I just re-added you to my faves. OD took a bunch of my faves off for some reason..

February 15, 2005

Thanks for visiting my OD and relating your experience. I must say I was really ticked off because it was so evident from the scene and the fact that my daughter was almost through the turn before she was hit. I knew as soon as the other driver said she was from out-of-state, it would be a no-fault because it was OBVIOUSLY not my daughter’s. NC cops! Bah. Humbug. LOL

March 2, 2005

aww, no entries!! :-/ I saw your note on laurie’s diary & that is was a great idea & decided to come check ya out….guess not!! đŸ˜‰

March 3, 2005

I felt like that for a while & then had an experience where no one in real life really listened & just let me talk & get it out so reluctantly I came here & holy crap, was the best thing for me at the time. I’ve made some great great friends. Good luck with starting đŸ˜‰

RYN: Do you have Yahoo or AIM?

RYN: I went to Coker College in Hartsville, SC. Throughout the years, I have taken a few course here and there. I think, as my mother told me tonight, I long to bring more chidren into the world for many reasons. Reason one would be just my love for children – I think – based upon my past. They are so precious and innocent. But. SHE brought up something scary to think about. It’s as if

I think that I can help make my ‘wrong’ of having an abortion ‘right’. That’s a hard one for me to put back into words to explain, but it’s a scary concept that I think she just may be correct on.

I’m quite sure that I will come back and note more later, but as of right now, I’m ready to pop a Seroquel and call it a night. I’ve gotten myself all worked up and don’t need the extra ‘stress’ to cause more bad dreams. You know, that’s one thing that people have noted me about in the past in having another child. I’m not ‘ready’ because I’m not emotionally stable. I think having Lillian

IS what keeps me sane and more stable than I sometimes appear in this diary. I mean, this diary isn’t how I am in “real” life. I don’t know. I’m going off on tangents now. I’m tired. My eyes are heavy. I think I might try going to bed or watch some Sci-Fi flick. Or something. Thank you for your notes. You’ve hit the hammer on the head moreso than you could imagine. And you did it

in such a respectful way. Whether it means anything to you or not – I respect what little I do know of you even more. So. Thank you.

June 1, 2005

RYN: Ooops you’re right. My grammar sucks. Seriously. Always has, always will.

June 6, 2005

Thank you for your very kind note recently. I have put you on my Favs list so you can keep updated if you wish. And …………… you should start writing yourself. I’d like to get to know you, too! đŸ™‚

RYN: Yeah. I still have no words for it today. It was THAT amazing. I was blown away. Still am.

July 24, 2005

RYN: I agree. I liked the grandparents better in the new version. I liked how the grandfather said, “I told you he’d be a porker,” and how the grandmother randomly said, “I like grapes.”

July 27, 2005

RYN: Yes Boo is still with my parents. Tommy loves him.

July 27, 2005

RYN: LOL Boo runs from Tommy. Sometimes he’ll sit there but not for long. He gives us a look that clearly says, “Please get this kid away from me now.”

RYN: I thought I had added you back. Make sure you read my entry directly after the Favs List one to make some sense of why I did what I did.

RYN: Yeah. I’m due an actual entry from you. That’s part of my reasoning for going back to SC so soon. My old therapist is there. She…there are no words. I’m already making plans to start seeing her again.

you’re from SC??!! get on yahoo messenger or something. seriously.

She and I aren’t friends anymore. Haven’t been for a while. She’s a bit two-faced at times and I’ve had enough. She’s changed to a different person over the years. In short, I have no idea.

RYN: 910 717 6115. ^That’s my number for now. Use it sometime.

August 13, 2005

thanks for the note.