you are one seriously fuct up chick

i really hate life lately.  i can’t pinpoint what started it or why it’s gone on for so long.  i feel like i want to run…..far away.

today i know what it is.  i’m working this really craptastic job at the university.  i basically answer phone calls from retarted students and their parents to give them info on their financial aid.  i hate it.  i’m going to stick it out though because well, we’re fucking broke.  broke to the point that our house payment is 3 months behind.  yeah.  it’s shitty.  today i got a call from my "boss" telling me that she can’t leave her office for the day so our training has been cancelled until next week monday.  i don’t even have 20 fucking hours this week.  i was told it was a 40 hour a week job.

today i looked at his myspace page because he was no longer on my friends list and i couldn’t find him.  all of his friends have been deleted, it didn’t make sense.  so i logged into it, he knew i did it i was on the phone with him.  he had a note from Dix.  wanna talk about piss me off.  she wanted to know "why is she still on here?"  what bitch?  i’m his fucking finace’, i still wear the ring.  that’s why i’m still fucking on there.  who does she think she is??  i’m serious, i mean what kind of kid, she’s not a woman, would be so unselfrespecting that she would continuously go after someone else’s man.  jeezuz, even if a guy told me that he was leaving his wife, girlfriend, whatever, i wouldn’t stick around. 

i don’t know what to think.  he says that he doesn’t talk to her anymore and that he’s had nothing to do with her in a long time, but why would she not just go away?  i mean is she seriously that fucked up?  when all this started she sent him a text that said "i’m going to burn your playhouse down".  now she’s all in love with him again?  i don’t get it.

i want to send her an email or call her and tell her to back the fuck off, but if i do that it’ll only cause problems.  she won’t talk to me, at all.  so that means she’ll start emailing him and calling him which in turn will cause us to fight. 

i hate this bullshit.

i’m sick of bullshit.

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Mj.
July 27, 2007

ugh! I hate dealing with X’s! I have enough problems of my own…let alone having to deal with those crazy bitches. One time when I got back together with my X Jeff, he had been half assed living with this big crazy chic..I went over there with him to get his shit..and stayed out in the truck. She came out lookin like who done it and why..screaming and picked up a tree branch and tried to kill me haha