Oh muh-fucker you picked the wrong bitch….

to start shit with

I was having an amazing day. I woke up my favorite way, spent the day with Tosh. We went to Island Fest, I ate goat curry for the first time (on both accounts), saw my favorite teacher from middle school (who happens to be married to the Rasta who made the goat curry), saw my grandfather, went to my aunt’s and just had a wondemous day.

Then we get back here and my uncle is drinking, go figure. He wasn’t being a dick, but it’s always a toss up when he’s drinking. Not only that, but most times just having Cody around sets him off. *rolls eyes*

Here’s my problem. This month, Cody didn’t buy any food for the house. He had to buy food for his baby shower. This pissed me off. Royally. When I found out that all he bought for this house was Gatorade, Doritos, Oreos and Lipton Ice Tea, I was furious. I had given him a list of things to buy and all he bought that was on the list was bacon. Mu-fucker, I cook, I clean and you don’t do shit around here at all and you’re not even going to try to help me out with the food??!! Are you fucking serious?

And then kid is so oblivious, that when I tell him I’m not talking to him after he asks me what I’m making for dinner. I tell him I have nothing to say to him and he goes straight to my uncle to find out why. Bitch, I am not your sister and he is not my dad. Later that nite he asks me to hook up the TV in the part of the basement that Tosh and I used to hang out in. It was only unplugged and he couldn’t figure out how to make it work. Jeezuz Pete’s Fucking Christ. I proceed to hook up the TV for him and his baby mama and he’s like “why are you not talking to me”? Of course I freak out on him. Tell him that he doesn’t need to eat any of the food I cook or bring into the house if he’s not going to contribute. He then tells me that he spent 80 on the baby shower, 65 for here (remember what he bought), and the rest at his girlfriend’s house. I asked him if he lived here or at her house and he was like here. Then help the fuck out. I told him I nothing else to say to him. And he tried to pull the “how would Drunkin feel if he knew you weren’t going to let me eat anything?” That really pissed me off. Don’t even try to play me. I will not be blackmailed. Wrong bitch, dumbass. So I told him to go narc me out right now, if he wanted to go that way, just walk right upstairs and tell him now. He didn’t.

That was about a week ago. Now, every time he sets Drunkin off while he’s drunk, he always brings my name into it. Really?! It’s like he’s trying to get me in trouble. I haven’t done anything and I’m fucking 32 years old. He wants to bring up the fact that my uncle doesn’t check to see if my room is a mess. Uh, no I don’t have Doritos crumbs on my floor. My clothes are put away. I’m not a pig like you are, stupid ass. It’s like he’s always trying to throw me under the bus for shit that he won’t do and I do. I vacuum, I cook, I do dishes. He doesn’t do any of that. How am I going to get bitched at for things I do without anyone asking me? Like I said, I am not your sister. I’ve tried to talk to him as an adult and nothing changes.

Tonite my uncle was drunk and on the phone bitching about Cody and all the things that he’s not doing or helping out with and Cody decides to get into with him. Then he brings my name into it. So, having enough of my name being brought into things that it shouldn’t be, I went upstairs and told him to keep my name out of his mouth. That if he wants to argue or start a fight or whatever, that’s fine, but do not bring me into it. So then he tries to yell at me. And I called him a poor baby, and he got all shitty about that. Whatev. Grow the fuck up man. I have no sympathy for him. Then my uncle told me that I was free to say whatever I wanted to Cody whenever I wanted. That made me laugh. Fuck him. I’m tired of his baby bullshit games. Go smoke some more weed in the bathroom and hope you don’t get caught.

On a totally wondemous and bright note, my sister Napoleon is prego! We never thought that she’d be able to have a baby, and she’s due in February. I’m so totally ‘cited. I’ll admit, I am jealous. I don’t think I’ll be having kids and I do feel kinda left out, but I am so totally happy for her. Even more exciting was that she, Jonathon (her step son), Tosh and I were there when she found out in the ER. She hadn’t been feeling well, so she called and asked if I would take her to the hospital. So I went with her, Tosh showed up and we sat in the room waiting to find out what was wrong with her. Jonathon was so totally happy, he was grinning ear to ear and she turned red and started to cry. When her boyfriend showed up, she showed him the sonogram and he was like “awesome”. He had been telling her all week that she was prego and she was like whatev. Lol.

Also, Tosh got a job! He starts tomorrow. I’m so happy for him too. He’s going to be working at Barnes and Nobles. I hope he gets a good discount on books, when I get a job I’ll be using that. Lol.

Life is changing fast. I’m gonna be lost without Tosh everyday. I’ll find my way. Just feeling a bit left behind with him working and my sister prego. I can’t wait to start working, get a place of my own and start my new life.

Tosh is all happy that he’s going to have money to spend. He says we’ll go out to dinner at least once a week and be able to do stuff now. Lol. Today he said I made him feel bad at Island Fest because I paid for him to get in and he bought us the goat curry and I didn’t really like it so I didn’t eat much. But I tried it. I was happy to try it. I’m all about trying new things with him. I found these silver cuffs with stones in them and I loved them. He wanted to buy me one, but I told him no. That made him feel bad because he had the money to buy it and I wouldn’t let him. I had to explain to him that I’m not that girlfriend. I don’t need my boyfriend to buy me things and that I wouldn’t ask for something like that. I told him if he wanted to buy things like that for me, he’d have to just do it and not ask me. I appreciate all that he does for me, but I don’t ask for things.

So one of the bands that we saw at the tribute concert, Zion Lion is playing Saturday nite. I really hope that he doesn’t have to work or something, I’d really like to go see them again. I dig Reggae, it’s not my favorite, but I dig it. Tosh has opened up so many things to me, I love him even more for that.