Chaos thy name is O
ugh
This week has been a rough one for me. Still no job prospects and that is really disheartening. Im tired of looking, being rejected and not finding anything. Im really tired of living in this environment. Im not happy where I am. I feel like Im living with an alcoholic parent and I have to make excuses for him, not really to anyone but just in general. Im remembering why I stopped talking to my uncle for so long to begin with.
The family drama that went on was concerning my sister, Napoleon. She stopped over to see me and hang out for a bit. So it was her, her bfs son JV, Tosh and I down here hanging out talking and junk. Everything was good. A couple of weeks before Id finally gotten Napoleon to talk to Aunt Ren and they were getting along, I thought things were great. I was pulling my family back together. Well, Ren called and I told her that Napoleon was here and she should stop over seeing how she was so close. So she and my youngest cousin Elly showed up. Elly came down and hung out with us, while Ren and Drunkin talked. JV went upstairs to go to the bathroom or something and then all hell broke loose. Ren told Napoleon that Drunkin had given him some candy and Napoleon lost it. Freaked the fuck out, talking about he didnt eat lunch, he cant have candy. So then that brought Drunkin screaming at the top of his lungs about her being a fucking bitch for not letting the little boy have candy. *sigh* Then Ren started screaming and Napoleon was screaming and then Drunkin started pushing her and calling her names. It was all so fucking crazy. Napoleon believes that the only reason why Drunkin didnt hit her is because Tosh was staring at him. Its possible. What sucked the most is that JV had to hear the whole thing. He was so upset and it was just all completely ridiculous.
Needless to say, Ren and Napoleon are no longer on speaking terms and shes not allowed here at the house unless Drunkin is home. whatev. It also pissed me off that I couldnt do anything to defend my sister. I had almost the same fight with Drunkin a few years ago about my step kids. Hes a dick.
This week Drunkin was pissed off that Tosh has been here so much lately. Hes jealous of the time that I spend with him. It couldve been a big huge fight, but I didnt let it get that way. I just listened to him and didnt argue. A lot of times its just easier that way. I made the mistake of telling Tosh a lot of what he had said, making Tosh pissed off at the way that he treats me. He also finds it more than a little odd that an uncle would be jealous of his nieces boyfriend. I just find it annoying. Drunkin wants it to go back to the way it was before I started hanging out with Tosh.. Apparently Ive become very distant from everyone since hes come around. So, yeah I spent more time with him before Tosh, but shit. I hated life, I had no where to go, no one else to talk to. Of course I watched TV with him, I didnt have one in my room. He can be butthurt all he wants, hes fucking stupid. And he cant say that were using more electricity than just me alone, all he can say is everytime he flushes the toilet, it costs me money. Are you fucking kidding me? Grow the fuck up.
In turn all of this caused the first fight yesterday. Drunkin asked if I would go pick up the rent from his tenants and he would buy me lunch. Not a big deal, I was like sure, Ill go do it. Tosh was on his way over and we were going to go to the library, so I didnt figure that it would be a big deal. Heh, I was fucking wrong. Tosh was furious that he asked me to do his errands and just flipped. He was yelling in the car and everything, so I asked him if he wanted me to take him back to his car. I was ready to tell him to just go home and Id talk to him later. I was seriously pissed off and ready to cry. I had tears in my eyes. I didnt feel like he was being fair. He said he wasnt mad at me, that he couldnt be. But it sure didnt feel that way. He apologized and we talked about it. Things are fine, but he doesnt really feel comfortable here. I cant blame him. I dont feel comfortable around here that much either.
I need a fucking job.
And where the hell did Bucks diary go????
Wow, your uncle is a peice of work. I have a feeling things would be the same way if I lived with my dad. He can be so unreasonable sometimes. Sorry about you and Tosh’s fight thingie. I’m sure that if he said he wasn’t mad at you though, he wasn’t. Guys are usually pretty direct about that kind of stuff. He was probably just aggrivated with the situation. Hope you find a job soon! <3
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Aww, huge hugs. I know what it’s like living in a shitty enviroment, especially when you HAVE to. Things will get better kiddo, they always do. Please keep positive and don’t let the ASS take away your wonderful spirit! Come to CT and live with me, there aren’t any jobs here either though. 🙁
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