Still IV

I beat my machine it’s a part of me it’s inside of me
I’m stuck in this dream it’s changing me I am becoming

The me that you know he had some second thoughts
He’s covered with scabs he is broken and sore
The me that you know he doesn’t come around much
That part of me isn’t here anymore

All pain disappears it’s the nature of my circuitry
Drowns out all I hear no escape from this my new consciousness

The me that you know he used to have feelings
But the blood has stopped pumping and he’s left to decay
The me that you know is now made up of wires
And even when I’m right with you I’m so far away

I can try to get away but I’ve strapped myself in
I can try to scratch away the sound in my ears
I can see it killing away all of my bad parts
I don’t want to listen but it’s all to clear

Hiding backwards inside of me I feel so unafraid
Annie, hold a little tighter I might just slip away

It wont give up it wants me dead
Goddamn this noise inside my head

She shines
In a world of ugliness
She matters
When everything is meaningless

Fragile,
She doesn’t see her beauty
She tries to get away
Sometimes
It’s just that nothing seems worth saving

I won’t let you fall apart

She reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by
Hoping someone can see
If I could fix myself I’d –
But it’s too late for me

I won’t let you fall apart

We’ll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide
I’ll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side
…but they keep waiting
…and picking…

It’s something I have to do
I was there, too
Before everything else