7/15/08

My Family!

I’m trying to remember when I updated last. Its incredibly difficult to get into my diary and just read back, when I’m at work, so I’m just gonna start fresh, and assume I need to write about my entire weekend. As busy as its been, something tells me I’ve not yet updated. So friday night, I went and spent some time with Daren and Lois. We were kid free, and had a blast. We didn’t actually DO  much persay, except talk, laugh, joke, and had quite a blast. I ended up staying til 5:30 in the morning, I do believe…or maybe it was 5….cannot remember, all I knew is I needed toget home in enough time for Jaime to go to work  in the AM. lol She was taking my car. We talked about sex, we talked about the past, we talked about when Daren and I dated, and what our probs and issues were, we talked about Daren and Lois’s past, how they met, what they were like before children….it was really very liberating and interesting. We all get along very well, and its kinda nice. I really like Lois, I think Daren made a good choice with her. He worries about her alot, him being on the road so much. He’s kinda chosen me to help take care of her and the kids, when he can’t be there. They have offered me their spare bedroom time and time again, for free in exchance for helping take care of the kids in the evening. ITs nice to know that I have options like that. But to be honest, they are just a leeeeetle too far out there for me….if they lived closer, then maybe….but as it stands now….nuh uh!! We ended up playing with the music videos on demand….we would each choose a song and watch thevideo for it, and it was kinda cool, since we all like the same music, but different. I got exposed to some awesome music i would otherwise never have known about, and we spouted some interesting trivia about it….lol I learned alot, and we all know, I will  never pass up a learning experience.
 
I went home, slept a little…but not alot…since we all know about my internal alarm. lol It leaves me incapable of sleeping til 2, tho I did sleep til almsot 7, then napped again til 8 or so….got up for good around 11. lol
 
On saturday, I spent my morning alternately cleaning, and watching a movie. I was absolutely starving and we had no food whatsoever in the house. So I just starved. Jaime had my car, so literally the only thing I could have done is walk to Subway, and I just wasn’t in the mood to walk. I think I may have went to the pool for a quick dip, but didn’t stay too long. I just wanted to get refreshed. I was going to hang out longer there, but I got a phone call from Brittany, asking if I either wanted to go out with them or babysit. I chose babysitting, cuz honestly, nothing against her or anything, but I am the furthest thing from a party girl that ever lived. LOL Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy going out once in awhile, but I have TWO bars in the world that I truly enjoy and feel comfortable in. And I don’t feel comfortable drinking with strangers, in strange environments. I know, I have issues, but I don’t let go of control over ME very often or easily. I need to be in control of myself at all times, around people I don’t know very well. So anyway, her baby is 3 months old, and sooooo tiny. His name is Joey, and I fell in love with him at first sight. He is teeny tiny, and a very good quiet, sweet baby. He giggles and coos…can’t hold his head up yet….lol In other words, perfect. We snuggled, played, and slept…..lol We had a good night, then Sunday, I was stuck at home with no food AGAIN all day, since Jaime had my car….then when she got home, I grabbed the baby, and we went to mommys house to do some laundry. lol Got most of it done, then went back home, and waited for him to get picked up. She picked him up around 8:30, I jumped in the shower really fast, then my girl came over!!!!! We got prettied up, and it was out on the town for us!! We had soooo much fun. We went to Encompass, for the drag show!!!! A friend of ours, Clark, was recently crowned Mr. Gay Indiana. He was performing, as well as a few other wonderful and amazing perfomers. Of all the "ladies" that performed, the only one I was familar with was Ms. Julia Knight, which I think I have seen in EVERY single show I have ever attended. LOL She is phenominal tho. She also EMCEES the shows, so thats prolly why she is always in them. lol Clark was awesome, as were the other performers. I was impressed with every last one of them, but I was rather disappointed that the "girl" who always does the…shit now I can’t think of her name….but she wasn’t there….she is the BEST most amazing performer I have ever seen. At some of the other shows, there have been people who ACTUALLY sing….thats why I love the benefit nights…they have some kickass performers. I LOVE drag shows. LOVE LOVE LOVE them. I love gay people. lol Like seriously, I am so comfortable in the company of gay men. lol Vince and Clark are awesome guys, and I look sooooo forward to a long and prosperous friendship with them. They have a passion for their cause, Indiana Equality, which is an amazing organization. I am going to ask my girl for some information, and post it here for you guys, my awesome awesome readers. See if you guys want to help us out, or attend events, or just help support the cause. 🙂 I love this area, and the people in it. See why I never ever want to leave. We were out very very late Sunday night, I enjoyed my time spent alone with my girl though. I just love her. She and vince drank alot, and it was just fun. LOL This very enebriated gay man asked me to dance with him, while Rai was in the bathroom. I said no, I don’t know how to dance, so he stood there talking to me about the music, and we ended up dancing anyway…he was sooooooo funny….telling me about music in the 60’s and how much better it was and how good this song was…and how easy it is to dance to….and how he bought the cd….and i don’t even remember the conversation, it was almost surreal, but I laughed so hard, he was a sweetheart. Like I said, I LOVE gay men. I want to collect them, and keep them as toys and playthings because they are just so cute. Don’t get me wrong, there are so many bitches and assholes amongst the men in the gay community. Gay men tend to be catty…lol But I still love them. I have to laugh, because Rai made the same observation that I have made many times over the years about the difference in the atmosphere of a gay bar vs a straight bar.
 
In the gay bar, you walk into the bar, and your WELCOMED in….as you make your way to your table, all it takes is knowing one person, then all of a sudden your hugging everybody in the room. You make just one friend(and its soooo easy to do, because gay people are super welcoming) and your immediately friends with everyone in the room, cuz lemme tell you, gay people network, and they know EVERYBODY. Of course, it helps that there is really only one "local" gay bar. We have 2 other ones that I know of, but neither are THAT close, and neither are as good as Encompass. You are hanging with a group at the gay club, and everyone is hugging one another. Even people who were strangers ten seconds ago…they are now your best friend, you learn their life stories over drinks, and by the end of the night, you are hugging them and everybody else you so happened to brush against throughout the night. You know that you WILL see them again, because really, as large as our community is…its very small too. By your second visit to the bar, you walk through the door, greeting your "friends" who introduce you to NEW friends. You then hug them, love on them, and by your third visit to the bar, its officially a "cheers" moment. Everybody knows your name, and you know everybody’s name. You are now meeting the strangers, and introducing them to everybody else. Another big difference between gay bars and straight bars are the freedom and trust. You can leave your drink unattended on the table, without fear that someone is going to take it, or slip something in it. Gay people watch out for one another. Someone is always there to make sure your gonna be ok. You can leave yoru cell phone and camera or purse on the table, and it won’t be gone. If someone is drinking a really yummy drink, invariably, they are gonna offer it to you to try….whether they know u or not…there is plenty of drink passing, and everybody wants to share their good moods. Its an open, happy, friendly community. FILLED with catty men, and witchy women…lol But thats how we like it. I LOVE gay gossip. Its always more interesting, when gay men are involved. I forgot how much I missed it…..sunday night was good…and i wanna make it a point to go to all the shows again. Maybe even just go out at night for a drink a few times a month.
 
So anyway….then there is my day/night yesterday. I got about a half hours sleep, before I had to get up and go to work. GRR….ended up getting a late start, then I get here, and it was a horrible migrane from the second I woke up. I actually started getting it the night before. Its just toooooo much sleep deprivation, plus stress equals ugly. I made it to work anyway, and worked half the day….I ended up leaving early because I wanted to try and remove myself from the stress. I figured I could get it down from migrane level to just regular headache level if i went home, swam, relaxed, and just took it easy the rest of the day. I went home, surprised the shit outta Jaime, who had just woke up for the day. Seh asked why I was home, I told her cuz its time to swim, she was in her suit, and ready to go before I even could get to the bedroom. lol She was soooo excited, so we went to the pool, i floated on my inner tube for awhile, then we played ball. We got these catchy things….to help you catch and throw it…very cool. We played for hours with that, and talked, and had such a great swim. I got some kickass excercize outta it, and built up some muscles in my arm andshoulder from throwing and catching so much. lol Jaime was upset cuz Chris ruined their vacation plans. They were supposed to go to Missouri for two days, cuz they managed to actually be given 2 days in a row off….well chris decided to make a doc appt, so now they can’t go….Jaime was pissed. But eh….she will be ok. She is excited about her dr appt tomorrow, cuz she desperately needs her meds adjusted. She is seriously wanting to rip heads off lately….
 
So after we swam, I went home, and mom called. Told me to come over for dinner (did i mention, i didn’t eat ANYTHING all day yesterday???)and to pick up my last basket of laundry, and my liscense plate. I said see ya in a min, and i was outta there! Went to visit, ate hotdogs, hung out with mommy, and packed up some food. (I got the last of the food daddy isn’t allowed to eat) so yay have some food int he house again. Took Bruno for a walk, and went to the dollar store with mommy for some yummmmmy almond cookies. After that, I went and visted Dawn at the psyche hospital. It was so sad. Visiting hours are from 7-8, and I was late getting there. I did get there finally though, and I walk in there, and she is sitting alone watching animal planet, looked so unbelievably sad…I snuck up behind her, and wrapped my arms around her, and gave her a huge hug….she went from sad, to almost giddy instantly. She is not doing well…not at all. She won’t be getting out of there anytime soon. She is on suicide watch, AGAIN because she tried it again INSIDE the hospital. They left the strings in her pants…grrr….she is sooo upset….she is obsessing over her dog…sheis so afraid Jaime is going to try keeping her…..she has had almost no visitors. Me and Brittany are the only ones who have come regularly, and I felt terrible, because I missed the weekend. (had the baby…couldn’t be helped) otherwise, I would definitely had been there. Her parents are not only not visitng, but they aren’t even bothering to call and see how she is doing….nobody in her family is acting like they give a crap about her. She is even worried, that when she DOES get out, will she have nowhere to go. She is afraid she won’t be welcomed back into her home. And she is sooo upset that Jaime won’t come visit her. Jaime is being so selfish about it. She can’t even spare an hour a day. Dawn begs her every day to please come. Jaime will say yes, then not go. I have come to see Brittany in a new light. She is actually, seriously, a good person, and a good friend. She doesn’t even KNOW Dawn that well…they met through Nate…..but she has really rallied for her. Despite the fact that she has no car, and has a baby that cannot be brought in, she has made it a point to try and visit her every day or at least as often as possible….and keeps bringing her contraband. lol Dawn can’t STAND the food, so she is mostly not eating, and they no longer allow outside food…so Brittany snuck her cheeseburgers one day, and set it up with the nurses, that if she orders enough for everybody, she can do a pizza day, so at least for one day, Dawn will be able to eat to her hearts content. She is doing everything and anything she can to try and keep Dawn’s spirts up, and I really respect her. She struck me as a bit of abimbo, andkinda self absorbed…but thats not it at all. Something tells me there is alot more to her, than we first thought, and I rather think I might like her. I met her boyfriend, and got that whole story too….he is such a nice nice guy, and a very good daddy. I can;t judge people based on one bad experience. IfI did that, I would be just as bad as everyone else who didn’t give the people I date a chance. I have dated some characters, and invariably, someone would judge them without giving them a chance. I don’t want to be that person, so I will give her the benefit of the doubt. As it stands now, I like her..
 
So then the adventure of yesterday continues….
 
I went back to moms, to grab my frozen food, and say hi to uncle mike…
chatted for a min, but it was almost 9 by then, i was soooo tired…remember my half hour of sleep, plus migrane….i was just totally wiped, when i get a phone call from Daren. Their power was shut off, and Lois was in a hotel near me, would I mind please going to visit her, and checking on her, and giving her some company for a bit, to calm her and her frazzled children. lol She basically, just needed a friend, and an extra set of hands to get the kids to sleep. I was exhausted, but she was close by, and in desperate need of a friendly face, and honestly, they would do the same for me if our situations were switched….so I brought the groceries home, picked her up some Dr. Pepper, and went to Red Roof Inn…..and what did I come to? Lois was locked outside(deadbolt, by her 2 year old daughter, with the daughter and the baby inside. Little Daren was screaming, and crying, the door opened a crack, him trying to fit his body thru it, FREAKING out…her freaking out cuz she couldn’t get to him, Angelique laying on the bed, tuning everyone out….oh my. The hotel owner, the desk clerk, and this black kid…who i think used to be a theif in jail was all trying to slip the deadbolt…i did learn exactly how to get into a locked hotel room. I immediately took control of the situation tho when I got there….first we needed to calm the freaking out baby….and they were not havin luck slipping the deadbolt so i had everyone stand back. First thing i did was talk to the baby, try to calm him down, and hold his hand for a min…i got him calmed, and i called to Angelique. As soon as she saw I was there, she got insanely excited, cuz she just LOVES ME!! She said Kristin here, kristin here…yayyyyyy coming to play with me….for me for me! lol So I talked to her for a minute, then i asked her to pull her brother away from the door….tthey were having problems shutting it, cuz he kept putting his fingers and feet in the crack trying to fit through…..so she did…and they tried breking in again…i managed to get her to pull the curtain back so we could see in the room…then i thought…well if she slipped the deadbolt in the first place…..why not ask her to do it again….apparently lois had tried asking her already, and she either ignored her and told her no…so i called her over, and said angelique…do me a favor….flip the lock for me….like you did before, flip it back….so she runs over, grabs the desk chair, stands up on it, and immediately flips the lock!!! WHEE!!! It worked, and we were in! The desk clerk lady and everyone else was amazed…..she is barely 2…how did she understand what to do…..holy shit people….NEVER underestimate the intelligence of a scarily smart 2 year old. This child is honestly, one ofthe most intelligent children I have EVER met. And also one of the most sensitive. I think she has the mental capacity of AT LEAST a 6 or 7 year old right now, at 2. That child understands EVERYTHING you say to her, and is capable of holding a full conversation. She thinks and reasons better than some teenagers i know lol
 
So I got the kids to sleep…Daren was so worked up that he was the harder challenge. We practialy had to sit on him to get him out, but I suceeded. Angelique was perfect for me. She always is…..she loves me to death. lol So I talked to Lois for a bit once they were out, and at 11:45, I wenthome to pass the fuck out. And here I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel ok today, but like a truck ran me over.
 
Ok time to work…this was a looong one…comment me if you read me. I miss reading tons of comments.
 
Kristin