7/11/08

My Family!

 

I just wanted to write a quick entry….cuz man am I slammed at work again. I swear to god, I have never been as stressed out as I have this last two weeks in my entire life. I only have one more week of this hell, then Manny comes back, thank goodness. LOL I actually had the girl who sits next to me, Judy say "I miss the old Kristin, the happy bubbly one" Nobody likes stressed out, wanna rip some heads off Kristin. lol And I do…I have a real desire to tell everyone to just fuck off, and mean it!! LOL I haven’t even had messenger on the last few days, but today I turned it on, and who happened to be on, but my old buddy from ISPQ Osiris….man we go waay back. So much has happened since I have talked to him last, he got divorced, figured out that he is bisexual…I mean wow…. llol he asked if I was still Bi, or if I decided to stick with the ladies. Its been sooooo many years since I have talked to him, I am honestly surprised he still rememberd me. So we’re gonna meet for a drink or dinner or something sometime soon. Oh how nice it is talking to people from the past!!

Yesterday was hell day at work. I have gotten NO help from anybody the past few days, and they decided to send about 5000 shipments to canada, and i am the only one who can do docs….so did I get any of what I needed to do done? NOOOO……and the railroad sent the wrong size containers, so they split up orders, which means i had to manually fake up invoices, and oh it was such a headache….i mean serious headache. I am tired of talking to canada customs, and my customs broker. I am tired of them, they drive me insane, and i am soooo done with it all. lol
 
We also had a cofee taste test yesterday, because we;re considering going with a new coffee vendor. So she made us 5 different pots of coffee, and by that time I had already had 4 cans of mt dew, because it was just a really bad day and i needed caffine…..
 
so yesterday, i had 5 cups of coffe and 4 cans of mt dew. I was flying high on a caffine high from hell, and when i crashed, i crashed hard. Then I was on m way home from work, when Jaime called and told me Dawn was back at the Psych hospital. Seriously, how much more of this can I take? So I left work around 5 (cuz yes, i got several hours of overtime yesterday) and went home, picked up Jaime, we went to Dawn’s parents house, packed up her clothes and her dog, took the dog to our house, then Jaime made us a quick dinner, and when visiting hours started at Southlake, we went and visited Dawn. Another of her friends was there, Brittany….we all talked for a bit, then Jaime and I went home, let the dogs out, and I went into computer land, and Jaime’s gf Chris came over.I played on the puter for a while, helped Cynthia brainstorm names for her company, then I went to bed, and watched Animal Planet all night. I am addicted to this show called Miami Animal Police. Oh that show makes me cry….the things you see…so I bawled all night watching this show, and eventually fell into a really troubled sleep. I’m really worried, with all this stress I am under right now…thats what usually causes my blood pressure to be so high. I have not taken my meds in a month or so…and now with all this stress….I am just worried I am gonna freaking stroke out. lol So my goal this weekend is to not think about work, and rest and relax as much as possible.  I know I was supposed to get together with Daren and family tonight, but they have not yet called me…so as soonas i get home, in the water I shall go!!! I am gonna swim, very fast, and very forceful until I am  so exhausted, I cannot think…then I will lay down and relax til someone calls me and tells me what the plan is. Saturday, I shall rest, then Sunday, I shall do laundry. That’s my weekend….and I am taking it…ITS MINE!!!!

Now I have a headavhe, and am not feeling well so I am going to go work some more. I ate my lunch, and it was good..but gone too fast.
 
Love, peace, elbow grease!

Kristin
 
 

So there is no real reason for it, but this is the song that’s stuck in my head today….
Love this song…can’t stop singing it….
 
 
 
I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

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[CHORUS:]
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have

All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
And though your still with me
I’ve been alone all along

 

 

 

 

 

 

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