6/20/08

My Family!

Good morning, all!

So today is going better. I mean, not really….but yet still it is. My head is back firmly on my shoulders. I’m not freaking out and losing it anymore. I have no desire to sleep, which is good. Today is payday. My check is gone before I get it, from all the necessities that I must get….yet still…its payday. I can get those necessities.
 
I got gas this morning, and splurged and bought myself breakfast. That’s it, thats all the fast food I will buy. No more lunches, dinners, or breakfasts out. I’m going to the grocery store, with a limit of $40 and I am going to buy quick and easy meals so that I have stuff for breakfast, lunch and dinner for the next two weeks. I am putting $50 away for Pride, that should be more than enough.
 
I will put my $200 away for rent..
$125.00 for car.
$50 for cell phone
$90 for cable..
$50 for gas…..
$50 for contacts (which I ordered today cuz I cannot take these glasses anymore)
 
That’s my check! 🙂 Hopefully I have that much…I haven’t checked my bank balance yet. lol But we shall see!! I am gonna go transfer some moneys! 🙂

So where was I…oh yes….I woke up with a terrrrrible sinus headache, which still is absolutely killing me. I want to stick a knife through my eye balls. Yes, it hurts that bad. I hunted for my contacts, which I cannot find anywhere. My glasses do NOT help bad sinus headaches. Contacts that actually correct my vision do help. lol So I broke down today, and called Wal-Mart and ordered my contacts. I also called my eye doctor to see if they actually had them in stock…while they were more expensive…if they had them in stock I would have ordered them anyway….
 
Alas, not in stock….3-4 days…..so I just stuck with Wal-Mart, and hope they get them quickly. Both my eyes are the same, so thankfully I could order just one box, and get three pairs. I have been wearing my two week pair since october, without taking them out. lol OOPS! So yeah..thats why my eyes were super irritated.
 
I am getting a sinus cold tho…I was suuuper congested.
 
Christy is staying the weekend with me, help keep me from being super lonely. lol We had the talk about sharing the bed yesterday lmao We may share, or I may just sleep on the floor. ITs a very comfy floor. I like it lots. lol I have slept on the floor a few times. Tonight, we’re going to the taste of crown point, for dinner. I want my pork steak sammich. lol Its my yearly tradition. Jaime is prolly gonna come with us, unless she isnt feeling well. Haven’t really hung out with her at all since we broke up. She is always on the go with Chris,and when Chris isn’t with her, she is sleeping, moping around, or texting her like crazy. Its kinda sad actually. LOL Oh who am I kidding, I can only dream of a love like that. I secretly want that sappy sad co-dependent relationship like that. Oh how nice it would be to be loved to the point of distraction like that. Nobody ever feels that way about me. Its always the luke warm "I can take ya or leave ya" kinda love. Sad, very sad. lol On the flip side, as independent as I am, i really DON’T want co-dependence. I only think I do. I think the reality might send me running for the hills. lol Who knows. I’ve honestly only experienced it once. Only been with one person who ever loved me like that….well two….both guys I was with….its girls that are indifferent. lmao
 
Well I am really not feeling well, so I am going to go do some work, then take another Aleve. I just can’t shake this headache. Its making me tired….gah…..
 
Talk soon!

Kristin