The ruin-er

Okay, so maybe I’m a lot to handle but am I that bad? I guess I’d like to think that I’m not. The reality of it is, though, I ruin good things before they even begin. I met someone. Someone who is relatable and loving. It’s unfortunate that I’m far too damaged and traumatized for a true relationship. I’m not deserving of a love… due to the fact that I trip, I worry too much, I think the worse, I “flip flop”, and much more. Perhaps, love just isn’t something for me. At least, my sons love is never ending.