A New Voice

“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language
And next year’s words await another voice.”

                                                                                            TS Eliot, Four Quartets

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!

Luces de bengala, de mi México querido, y de mi niñez añorada

As a resolution, I wanted to really commit to post here daily, about ONE good, positive or negative thing I’m thankful about (or should be), but I don’t know that I’ll be able to keep that one, and that would be a ton of one-line entries…not sure how it would be received.  Maybe I’ll keep a private entry and update it daily, and make it public at the end of 2013.

In the meanwhile, I’m thankful for Pascal making it to Christmas – though it was nerve-excruciating to live one day at a time on that one, not knowing IF he’d make it. I’m further thankful that he’s even made it past the new year and I treasure every breath coming out of him.

That said, here are a few less cumbersome resolutions that I can share:

1.- I’m going off Weight Watchers; it’s nice but expensive, and after 10 months on it with really good results, I have the points calculator, the record-keeping weighing scale, and the food scale (and the food reference books and all). I can pretty much figure it out from there, and don’t need to pay $40+ a month to be able to do it online.  Thirty lbs. down, about 70 more to go to make me happy w/myself.

2.- Working hard to get a job, after losing mine to an oversensitive asshole who did tech support for my company FROM FUCKING OVERSEAS and complained when he greeted me with an islamic greeting and I reminded him about the fact that he worked for {nameofcompany} and not for Allah, and that he should answer the phone like the rest of us do. The fact that *I* found his advance offensive apparently is worth crap to my ex-company, who appears to want to appease any foreigner at any cost.

3.- Stop biting my nails.  Gonna try reeeeeeeeeeeeally hard. Not making any promises.

4.- Exercise, even if for one minute, but EVERY single day, no excuses.

5.- Sleep more and/or find why the hell I can’t sleep more than 2 or 3 hours a night.

6. – Join a dance class of some sort. Salsa sounds attractive.

7.- Rejoin the martial arts studio and get that elusive black belt already!

8.- Try to be more tolerant.  I’m very patient, but when someone hits the switch, there is no delay in the explosion.