sexual thoughts

Dear Diary,

I know it’s been some time since i’ve written in here. And since i moved or started college i hardly ever write in here anymore. But in all honesty it’s nice to know that i can always come back here to say what i want to or to write what i can’t say. So here goes…

I guess what i really wanted to talk about is how whenever i have any kinds of sexual urges i always end up feeling guilty, and then once i feel guilty i want to cut. i mean is it because of the abuse, i’m afraid that sex may feel good or something. i don’t know i feel dirty. i wish i could write more and i will when i have a bit more privacy, until then…

hide your love away,

krissy