Purging Insanities

I need to purge my insanities,
Dark and deadly thoughts within me,
The things that would destroy my reality,
Yet continue to come to tempt me…

I use my words to help me purge,
To dump the dirt within,
That it does continue to stave the urge,
To commit such dreadful a sin…

I write my lies, my miseries,
That it does not ever become me,
I use my words, that it turns not into action,
I use words instead of physical reaction.

I want, I need, I desire, fire…
If I get, I’ll regret, I know, I know…
And this is the way I shall go,
To write today, and act not tomorrow,
On the temptations that will bring sorrow…

I live to hold the name of my father,
The sacred memory of my beloved mother,
The trust and faith of my steadfast sister,
The understanding of my dearest brother…

There are so many others who would never again be with me,
If I give in to temptation, give in to sensation,
And that would be utter misery,
To lose the hearts in which I’ve made my home…

I entertain the illusion,
As only a vision,
Of what I may want,
But will never know…
That is my life,
And it will always be so.

The End
Sky Lark Crow
9.27am 4th August 2009

Anyways, I have housesitting to do… No, I love my husband, I don’t want to do anything that would hurt him. I like thinking about it as something outside the marriage that doesn’t touch it at all… But in reality that could never happen, so I just think about things…

Be well…

Lanis