oh… I want to be bad…

I’ve always wanted to explore my bi-sexual side, but never found the right person to do that with…

Now that I am married, it would be horrible for me to do so, but honestly, I still want to find that woman that I’d click with and explore that side of me without my hubby knowing of course… But I don’t want a long term relationship thing, I just want to get it out of my system so that I can get on with life… Lately, more and more I’ve been thinking about it and wanting to find that woman…

It’s insane, I’ll admit I’ve put up a couple of adds but as from years before, I’ve never gotten the right response from the right person… Perhaps I never will… I really don’t know… Perhaps I just have to pop into a lesbian bar and see where that will take me…

I am just frustrated… I guess I expected more from marriage, but it not being that way makes me even more frustrated and wanting to just find a woman to explore life with as I love my husband…

Anyways, I don’t know what’s going to happen…

I’m probably screwing things up, but they are already screwed up anyways.

Oh well, sometimes life’s like that I guess… Just have to make the best of it.

You be well!

Sincerely,
Lanis 

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August 3, 2009

i think if my wife came to me and said she wanted to explore her bi side, i’d encourage her to do it. what your hubby do/think if he found out?

August 3, 2009

You think it’s horrible but you’re going to do it anyway? I’m sure your husband also has desires that tempt him to be unfaithful – are you okay with him acting on them? Or would that only be okay if he were to sleep with another man? Hopefully if that’s your view you can be honest with him about what your marriage does and doesn’t mean and whether monogamy is part of the deal.