Fucked

My exams started today. One paper today, next Thursday, last wil be Friday.

But I totally fucked up!

I failed the paper. I know already.

Can’t possibly be any other verdict when you don’t complete filling in 40 answers on a 150 answer sheet because you ran out of time to finish filling it in.

I CAN’T AFFORD FUCKING SCREW UPS AND THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT I DID!!

I FEEL SO FUCKING RETARTED…. 40 DAMN FUCKING QUESTIONS NOT SHADED!!! COULD I POSSIBLY, EVER SO POSSIBLY HAVE SCREWED MY OWN FUCKING ASS MORE??!!

I feel like such a fucked up idiot right now over that.

I worked so damn hard for that paper, I studied so damn hard for it, and I fuck up taking too long to fill in the damn answers!

I asked the lecturer if they would look at the blue question/answer paper at all, coz that’s filled in right, just not the actual, more important answer sheet that’ll be going for marking through their techy computerized system.

She said no.

I need to get at least 60 correct answers out of those 150 questions to just pass… Which means I need now 60 of those 100 questions which I did shade to be correct. And you know what’s even more fucked up about it? That last half, those last 50 questions were the questions which I was MOST SURE OF THAT MY ANSWERS FOR WERE CORRECT!! AND I FUCKING RAN OUT OF FUCKING TIME TO SHADE THEM??? WHAT THE FUCK WAS I DOING IN THERE??!!!!

HOW COME EVERYONE ELSE COULD DO IT BUT ME??!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? HOW DID I BECOME SO FUCKING RETARTED??!!

I don’t fucking belong in University. I’ve been fucking fooling myself all this fucking time.

So I am fucked. I may as well have not gone for the damn exam, may as well have not studied for it and concentrated on the other two coming up instead.

I was cursing as soon as I left the hall. Krishna another guy from my class was like "I’ve never seen you this mad before!"

Well yeah, coz I’ve never fucked myself this badly before!

I don’t know what’s fucking wrong with me that I’d be so damned to jeapordize my whole education like this!

I hope I fail the damn paper and they make me resit it. I don’t want to pass just enough that they won’t let me resit. It’s gonna cost me another whole semester and a whole lot of money now because of my fucked up head.

I was spitting mad, still am spitting mad. I wanted to cry but I was too angry to cry, still am.

I went to watch "Fast and the Furious : Tokyo Drift" I should have probably opted for a comedy instead, but hell I wasn’t thinking straight. Great movie but only got my blood pumping hotter so I’ve been angry for a straight 10hours now with little sign of easing.

I just want to get the damn exams over and get the fuck out of this hell hole!

You take care though

Ciao
A Fucked up in the head bitch.