May 9, 2010

I Like Guys

I didn’t think of it as unnatural
These thoughts about being with another guy
I remember the very first guy
1st grade, this boy named Jeff, I still remember his name
We were great friends, and I just had this strange infatuation with him
I just wanted to be around him all the time
I didn’t care how I spent time as long as it was around him
Hell, we could’ve played tag for hours on end
As long as he was there I didn’t care
And he never knew it.

Around that time I was being teased, and I didn’t quite understand it
So one day I just went to the library and looked it up
I even found a book, read about it…
So this is what that means…now I know what they’re getting at

When I finally told my family,
They knew, they just didn’t wanna talk about it
And I got all these phone calls, and questions
Are you going through a phase? Are you kidding?

Dad tried to lecture me about the Bible…
Dad, I don’t need you to lecture me about the Bible
I know what goes on in the Bible, there’s more than just that

They thought I would start dressing like a girl
And that’s not me, I love who I am
I like what I wear, I like guy clothes
I like guys

Special thanks to Victor Centeno for sharing his stories with me, they have inspired this poem and much of my recent work.

For once in my life, my hand is there, but still no one, wants to care, I try and talk to my friends, but they laugh off my problems, then turn and walk away, and I am left, alone again, the darkness consuming my day I am crying out for help, and no one cares I am reaching out my hand, but finding only empty air

Blood_red_Rose

May 21, 2010

Hope was what used to save me, but that too now is gone I wonder what happened; I used to be so strong… As always,

TobiMac

May 26, 2010

I like guys clothes too 🙂

Everyone’s always in denial.

I liked this one.