Thinking

The other day after writing about Thanksgiving memories, I started to think about maybe having people over this year. Since I am an only child, and my parents are divorced – I can’t really invite one or the other over without one of them feeling left out, so once we were adults none of the family really gets together anymore … on either side.

I thought about inviting Ashley over but she has her own family, sister and mom and dad. I did kinda casually mention something this morning and she replied with “Oh yeah dude, my family fucking hates me.” I thought it would be nice if her and her kids came over and then they could help decorate the tree and whatnot. I used to be one of those people who had to have the ornaments just perfect like out of a magazine and would let Kat do it but would go back after she went to sleep to fix it … but the older I get the more I remember the fun is for the kids. So I learned to let that ish go. No one really cares what your tree looks like anyway.

Yesterday I got home and was surprised because Nick had in fact done the dishes. My heart was a flutter. House was clean and vacuumed. He did tell me he had an ulterior motive though. He wants to go fishing tomorrow. I said I didn’t care. He can go freeze his buns off if he wants. Then I made pork chops and corn. I went to bed soon after that, early again last night. The extra sleep has been feeling amazing. Sometimes I feel like I can never get enough. Of course when I can sleep I end up staying up all night and still getting up at 7.

Quiet day on the work front. The administrator is out with a sick kid, and I still don’t actually have a boss … so it’s just me, the phones and a the scanning stack for the next 10 hours. They did hire someone to replace Kimberly, but she put in a 4 week notice at her old job, so she wont be starting for about a month. I hope it goes by quick because printing thousand dollar checks makes me nervous in a way I can’t put into words. I don’t have that kind of money to pay for any mistakes.

My heart feels full today. With love and joy, sadness and pain, thoughts and admiration. I dunno. Seems like today will be an alright day. Hope it is for you too.