Well, I need an upgrade
Alright, so it’s November…which means holiday season is coming up. December marks my birthday and Christmas….Now, I get that I am 21 will be 22, but I think I am due for some kind of gift, or compensation, or something of the like. And it’s not simply because of the fact that it’s upcoming holiday season…it’s that I’ve fucking done more than enough to deserve this request of mine. So, I am mad at this point from thinking about it so…I figured I’d vent out what I want and why I fucking deserve it
So, my laptop Alienware M17X R2…has been on it’s last leg for quite awhile now…battery issues, performance issues that just make no sense…etc etc. Awhile ago, I was going to get it fixed by putting up the money and using parents card while I gave them cash…well….shocker…that never happened. So, now I recently got a gift game from a friend, partialyl because they didn’t want to play it without me..it’s one of those games, and turns out my computer is at long last full on unable to play a game. So, I want my fucking desktop build. I’ve been trying to for fucking at least 2 years now, and every time I started to make some financial headway…somebody needed my money, and I couldn’t really do much about it…they needed it and I had it, so sure I let them borrow it. "borrow" which apparently means give and never have it mentioned again.
Alright so, it’s been how many years since I have gotten anything for christmas or my birthday? Let alone asked for something? It’s brs.een several years…the last time I even asked for something for my birthday was when I wanted a second tv/monitor so I didn’t have to carry my tv back and forth from the apartment every weekend. And even then I was going to put up half the money for it. That was several years ago…and that’s just talking about my birthday. You know what happened this year for my sister’s birthday? She bitched and moaned about not getting anything soooo fucking much until the point that my parents gave in and took her on a shopping spree. She’s 3 years older than me and has a child….
How about last year? My birthday…21st…ya know at the very least I should have been able to drink a little bit to celebrate…I had half a beer…and beer tastes like shit..for the record..Did I ever tell you WHY I only had half a beer? Because on my birthday we went to my sister’s place for dinner…idr why..it wasn’t for my bday that’s for damn sure…but My mother was exhausted from work and my father decided he would drink…and I had to be sober in case my mother was too exhausted or he had too much…on MY fucking 21st birthday…I should have been fucking black out drunk, passed out on the back seat on the way home…but nope…I had to cover him…on my 21st birthday…
So let’s just ignore the fact that I haven’t gotten or asked for shit in years…Let’s ignore the fact that my sister, 3 years older than me and has a child, gets something every year and cries like a fucking child when she doesn’t …Let’s ignore all of that stuff….
Let’s look at just my sibling for the time being (excluding the birthday shit)…so I parted ways with PP (The old kennel I worked at) and I still had money left over, which my sister..here’s that word again…"borrowed" the majority of it. And by "borrowed" I mean said she’d pay me back…and never spoke of it again. Now there’s that…and then there’s the first span of time of my babysitting my nephew…Under the promise of "I’ll pay you" And I agreed, under the agreement of being paid…Babysat…never saw a dime, as a matter of fact she borrowed more of my money in that time frame. Then there’s a break….And I am asked…if you hold off on finding a job, I will pay you to babysit Keegan over the summer" So, I’m like alright..sure…it’ll take me time to find another kennel so what the hell, I’ll hold off a bit…I got paid this time for the first half of it….and then the second half comes…I do my part, and babysit..even more than agreed upon. Even cancelled some plans to accomdate her..I haven’t babysat in…what? 3 months? something like that…and I am yet to see a fucking dime…all the while she buys a bunch of shit for herself…WHERE’S MY FUCKING MONEY?!?!? Oh and when I ask about it…I either get ignored or promised to be paid in a week….or She wants me to babysit again, and promises me more money….-_- Bitch you havent paid me yet…what makes you think I believe you for a second? And I have been fucking patient as hell about it all. There have been a few times that I asked about a few bucks to get something small here or there, and everytime I basically get ignored…and later hear that she whined to my parents, who proceed to try and get me to lay off with the line "she feels really bad that she hasn’t paid you yet" Fucking…no she doesnt…if she did she would have fucking paid me by now instead of buying herself shit. If she felt bad she wouldnt fucking ignore me. So, I’ve been patient, and kind, and understanding, and taken advantage of, but still been ridiculously patient and kind and nice about the whole thing…And considering she is yet to pay me, and in actuality probably borrowed more money than she’s paid me…I’d say that warrants me some points.
How about family shit…How about the fact that I am the one that handles EVERYTHING at home. I take care of the dogs, and pick up after them when my father doesn’t walk them when he’s supposed to and he blatantly ignores the mess, and hides in his room until someone else comes along to clean it up. You’rea grown ass man….Grow a pair. How about the fact that anytime there is something going on with extended family…I am the one that stays here and takes care of the house and the dogs? Me. And you know what…Every now and then…that extended family grabs some Penguins tickets for us when we come up…and I am the biggest hockey fan in my family. But no, because I am the only person that my mother trusts to be able to handle the dogs on my own…I stay behind. I am the one relied on so fucking much.
The list of shit I do, and sacrifice, is a loooonnng one. I don’t ask for much, and I don’t make a big deal out of shit… I think I fucking deserve this upgrade…I also contribute to the shit that I want…always….I never don’t contribute…and I always compensate for the part that I can’t financially meet at the time.
I should be able to put up at the very least half of the money for a 500ish dollar build Which should be able to run all the games for at least awhile, and if it is a build then I can always upgrade piece by piece. I fucking deserve this..
Sorry, but it’s very frustrating doing so much, getting nothing in return, and watching your sibling be fucking put on a pedistal when…HAHAHA sorry but I am fucking better. Not to sound like a dick or anything, but…I AM the better offspring, and just this once I want what I deserve.
King out