Paranormal? Or Just Paranoid?

Why is it that after watching a t.v. show about ghost hunting you start to feel that creepy chill down your back?  It’s kinda weird the feeling that comes over you…not to mention the thoughts that go through your head.  I often wonder how people are so inquistive about the subject that they are just ready to actually find these haunted locations and check it out for themselves. I know I would NEVER be able to handle such an ordeal. 

It’s funny though…..after watching an episode about this subject I find myself overcome with anxiety.  Is there someone really there? Everynight I’m usually the last person to head off to bed.  I go through my normal routine of staying up as late as midnight smoking a few cigarettes on the porch while listening to my MP3 player before I call it a night.  Tonight I didn’t feel much at ease as I normally do.  Almost felt like someone was watching me.  Course I know there is no one there…I at least keep trying to reassure myself of this.  An then when I least expect it,  the outside cat jumped on the back of my chair an scared the crap out of me.  If my boyfriend and his best friend were up they’d be laughing at how silly I was acting. 

But I only wonder…is there really paranormal activity beyond our physical vision?  Or is it just plain paranoia?  You know the mind can play plenty of tricks with you.  Trust me my mind was at full speed tonight. 

Where I’m from the city has its many haunted tales of ghost.  Just a couple years back my boyfriend and I went on one of the haunted walking tours around here.  I was pretty shocked at how many desecrated graves are around here.  In the one the squares downtown is where the first hanging gallows were.  A pregnant woman was one of the first to be hung, because of talk that she was a witch.  I couldn’t imagine witnessing such a thing during that time period.  It makes you wonder if her soul still lurks about in that area.  Our tour guide had even told us that in past tours he had given people had been knocked down to the ground.  Thankfully that did occur during our walking tour. 

Anyhow, as I close with this entry my only thought is….I hope I never have to come face to face with any entity of any form.  Whatever is out there, I’m not sure I could handle what is awaiting me.