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1. who was your first real friend? my first real friend was a girl named mckinley. i don’t remember much but her grandparents lived nextdoor to me before i moved when i was seven. i haven’t spoken to her in many years, but i still remember going on vacation with her and still have pictures.

2. what limits did your boyfriend break down sexually? uuuh…pretty much all of them. when we met i was a virgin and nobody had even been "down there".  he was the first person to make me feel like it was okay and that i was truly beautiful. now i do -almost- everything.

3. what music genre do you dislike? i can’t stand country. especially that really twangy stuff. blegh. other than that, i like everything.

4.favorite and why? don’t like drugs. they are bad.

5. definition of? i think that love is different for everyone. for me, it’s that heart-stopping feeling i get when my boyfriend touches me, or the warm chills that run up my spine when he kisses my neck.  it’s the joy that i feel when he smiles at me, or tells me that he loves me and that i’m beautiful.  it is knowing that if i call, he will answer.  and if i need him, he will be there.  i know it will last forever because thinking of spending one day without it, one day without him hurts me. that’s love.

6. what is yours? why? i’m agnostic, which basically means i don’t have a religion but i’m not an atheist.  i find religion to be fascinating, but i cannot be convinced of the existence of a higher being, i’m way too much of a philosopher and a logical thinker in my heart to be able to devote myself to something that may or may not exist and that may or may not be good.

* if you could have any job, what would it be?  my dream job is to sit in my apartment or home and write.  i wish it was possible for me to make a living off doing what i love.  if i had my way, i would be a novelist, a poet, a journalist, and a philospher.  i want to write books upon books and inspire people. hopefully i can do that.