on my own.

you know, it’s so nice that my parents are always there to help me out…NOT.

i STILL don’t have a driver’s license. my parents said they would buy me a car…until my father decided he wants to buy a mustang. fine. they said they’d let me take over my mom’s lease. that’s all fine and good, except my mother is always at work when i am home. i am always at work when she is home and on the weekends we both have off…she’s gone to her campground the "relax".  now i don’t blame her for wanted her time…but she still has two children living in the house…she’s not off the hook yet.  and i don’t feel comfortable enough driving a truck let alone being in a closed area with my father to have him give me a hand.

now, my boyfriend is gung ho about helping me…but he drives a stick.  plus he works seven days a week to make shit money.  plus he spends ninety percent of that money driving my ass around. 

so tell me…where is my help?

i’ve pretty much decided that as soon as i have the money, i’m gonna buy my own damn car.  hell, i’m half tempted to move out when it happens.  fuck my parents, they obviously don’t feel the need to help me gain my independance…perhaps because i’m their baby…but whatever the reason, if they won’t help, i’ll do it my damn self.  i’m tired of expecting so much out of them and recieving nothing.  my older brother who is dimwitted, irresponsible and quickly on his way to alcoholism gets every damn thing he wants, but me? the responsible, smart one? i get shit.

thanks, mom.