[[79]] the end.

after 6 months and some odd days, i broke up with my boyfriend.

after losing my virginity, feeling true love for the first time, and learning how to be committed, i had to end it. because he was not willing to sacrifice a simple thing for me. he is not willing to realize that i am a strong willed and strongly opiniated person and that i will not deal with anyone or anything that infringes ever so slightly on the values and goals that i have.

i told myself at 13, while watching my own father struggle with his addiction (alcohol), that i would not under any circumstance tolerate someone who’s addictions (in this case, marijuana) got in the way of our relationship. and he was not willing to see or acknowledge the fact that that was happening.

i am not naive. maybe my life has not been as glamorous or as intoxicated as some, but it is my life, and i love that it is drug and alcohol free (okay okay, so i drink sometimes :-P). i am damn proud of that fact.

if he can’t love that, than he can’t love me. and i’m not willing to sacrifice my love for him.

so there.
bitch.