Mania day two… the fun never starts!

I’m fried… only  be able to sleep due to heavy medications, and even then it’s not sleeping right.  I’m having odd dreams about my past and the like.  The past is a recurrent "bad" dream of mine… much guilt laden in my head.  Anyway I’ve been tossing and turning despite the heavy medicinal use.

That apathy is still there.  I think I try to sleep to avoid it but when your mind is awake and running it really doesn’t matter.  Just dont’ care.  Wanna go away.

I think I may go out for a walk and drink… been stuck in this house for 2 days now I think.  The feet feel better.  Time to get out a while.

Probably end up back on here pouring my guts out over everything that is happening.