Confidence has returned

I actually have had a GOOD day!

Not that good days are few and far between, but today was exceptionally good!  It’s a long story, but my ability and confidence in my job had hit an all time low.  I thought I wasn’t going to be able to do it… but I hung in there and persevered and proved to myslef that I CAN do and I DID do it!  Woo-who!  All you naysayers can bite my shiny metal ass!  HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA

No but it was good and I hope to keep it going.

I still have that other issue lingering in my head though.  I’ve kinda placed it too guilt.  I feel guilty.  I feel  bad.  I feel bad for stuff I have done and didn’t do.  It’s all related some how… actually I know how but I just don’t know how to fix it.  Don’t know what to do to make it seem right for me and everyone else.  I need the advice of friends.  I hope they will listen.  God I guess if they don’t listen then they’re not really friends right?

And just a random thought… I do miss my friends.  To quote some cheesy 80’s hairband "ya’ don’t knwo what you got till it’s gone".

Still tired… so off to bed.

Feeling better about being "here"… it’s nice actually. 🙂