boring vacation….
So back to work tomorrow after two and a half weeks off. Feels like one of the mosted wasted vacations I’ve ever had. Great.
E-mailed the wife today. Deosn’t want to talk about anything but if I miss her. It’s an honest question, but, I don’t miss the bullshit. Maybe I’m just being stupid over it and avoiding the question. My answer has been that I don’t miss the bullshit, bullshit being someone who doesn’t forgive, says I’m worthless, nothing good has come from me, and that I constantly "owe" her. So, if these are her traits that she is going to display for now and forever, then it is a resoudning NO that I don’t miss her. I"m not sure if that’s what she wants to hear or what I want to say, but that’s how I feel.
I guess I want to get this whole life thing sorted out again. I thought maybe I had a grasp on it, but now I don’t feel I do. Nothing seems to make me happy, I don’t do anything I love, I just trudge on from day to day. HOw do you find something that makes you happy? I don’t get ti. I can’ get lost in anything. I buy shit all the time in an attempt to get a hobby and nothing comes of it. Seems so stupid.