what is wrong with me?????

it’s summer but I’m not happy because I don’t know my school results yet plus that I am so freaking nervous about applying to schools.

it does remind me that this summer is not going to be for break,it’s going to be full of challenges,it’s going to test my self confidence,my courage,and my capability of handling with pressure and the problem that I’m suck in all those areas.

when the final test over I said that I’ll be happy every moment because I deserve it but here I am feeling everything but truly happy.

what is wrong with me?OMG!I stopped praying again! 

 

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June 22, 2012

thankyou for the advice:)

Hey, so far vacation has been just wonderfull! But the wonderfull won’t continue :/

Cause this girl that I am oh so in love with is gonna travel all summer.. first 3 weeks to London, then she’s back for 1 day, and then she’s of to China:O + I have zero chance of being in contact with her in any way ;/ Kinda suck….

Just thought I would try to read your entry, since you take time “Listening” to my problems. You know.. Grades aren’t really everything? Many great persons, have been bad in school but had other “Qualities” you just gotta find them;)

June 22, 2012

I’m glad that you can relate! It’s so nice to know that I’m not alone. But thank you for the notes. I appreciate them! & good luck with your grades!

June 23, 2012

yes he is and im so happy to have him….thank you 🙂

June 23, 2012

Is it bad that I thought it was comforting to hear you felt the same way? I’ve felt so alone lately because of all these thoughts I’ve been having. I’m sorry you’re so upset about school and everything. I hope things look up for you! (:

I really enjoy those songs and well, I have a really big taste in music so I like pretty much everything even classical music, so that is going to Explain the 3rd song;-) but well the girl who is going away actually showed me the song, so it kinda holds a Meaning for me? Hard to explain :3

June 23, 2012

thank u 🙂

June 24, 2012

Don’t worry about ur results leave it asside! Leave it to god! & don’t be afraid! Try to enjoy every single moment of ur summer !when u left me a note i wasn’t online I am not writing bec i write in my paper diary these days as i just can’t open from my own computer bec it has a virus! Yesterday i opened from my dad’s & just couldn’t write bec i was sleepy& in a bad mood bec my math teacher died

June 24, 2012

Yesterday!:'( i was really sad! It ‘s going to be a really good thing if u got the most out of this summer! I mean test ur self confidence& will be full of challenges!!

June 24, 2012

thx girl !!

I was like that until long ago, I was walking around saying “Justin bieber is so gay” And yeah uknow stuff like that?

June 24, 2012

I think it’s because i’m all sex alcohol fags parties etc. and shes not. and the people really got to me . oh well

June 24, 2012

Oh then u must go for it too for this year 🙂 thank u but right now my parents are annoying me bec they don’t want me to go anywhere bec it’s not safe here! But i really want to do it! I wanna learn piano,i wanna do something i’ll be proud of& i wanna be me this can help me do anything&i wanna play in concerts i really want this dream to become true!