good news!

 so it seems that I got a lot of notes on my last entry and I can’t express how much I’m thankful

for it,just to know there is people who cares about me,who don’t judge me even though they never seen me,GOD I wish I know you guys,I wish you were my best friends in real life,I would be the happiest person on earth plus I would never do what I did.

now I took 2 days off school: Monday and Tuesday and this last I really start crying again,I felt like loosing my mind,but I didn’t want my parents to know that I’m crying  especially that it was just that evening that we went to school and we told the principal everything happened including the suicide attempt than he start saying how life doesn’t worth it and everything everyone else said to me,how life doesn’t worth all of this and how this school where I’m studying is the best for me,and how medschool is painful and a lot of other stuff.to be honest I know that they say the truth but I’m too stuborn to admit that it’s true but I hate that place.

any way the same day about 9:pm I start writing and crying than i got this phone call  from a friend but I didn’t want to answer than my mom answered so I was forced to answer and thank GOD I did because I got the greatest news ever,I’m sorry but I’m not gonna say what it it because I’m little superstitious about it.than I start screaming of happiness and I prayed to thank GOD especially that I was just saying:"why GOD is doing this to me" and than i got those good news,the only thing I regret now  not praying enough,thanking him enough like I did when I was 15 and 17,I had faith in GOD but I was easy to be convinced than now my head is still trying to recover from this whole negativity so I know it’s not going to be easy for me but now at least I have something to remind me that GOD still next to me.

SO THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!