anxiety disorder

I have anxiety disorder,I know.

the seek of other’s love and the other’s approval,sometimes when I think about it,it makes me sick to my stomach.

I really want to get rid of it,get rid of fear,fear from people,I want to get rid of trying constantly to hide who I am to be liked by others and feeling bad about everything I do even if it was well done,I’m tired and angry that I still care about people after everything they made me go through it,after all the times they hurt me and here I am hurting the only people who love me because I don’t have the courage and the guts to face those who truly hurt me.

I have anxiety disorder,bad one.and I need help,extreme help,or I’m gonna end up accepting what’s below me because neither people neither my self think that I deserve the best.