Wondering What Is Going On….

Well..its been a while since I wrote back in here. I really don’t know what to say…I’ve only chatted once with my sweetie in the last 2½ weeks. I talked to her for a lil bit online the other day..she has been under a lot of stress and its getting to her. And I feel its having its effect on us as well…I call her house and no one answers. She really hasn’t been talking to much of anyone..even me. The way I see it is…she can talk to me..my ears are always open and I have told her this before. She is letting whatever is stressing her out get to her…she says she will be fine but I don’t think she is doing too well. I was chattin to her son online for a bit last week…I asked him if his mom was home and he said she was. I asked him to ask his mom if I could call and she said no. Now..I was taken aback with this….I’m like..what the fuck is going on? I’m the last person that she should be shutting out..I care about her and I’ve told her that lots but why would she do that. I’ve done nothing wrong whatsoever…I’ve called this week a couple of times also and no answer. I have a feeling she doesn’t want to talk to me anymore…but if that is the case..TELL ME. I’m a big boy…I can handle it. I don’t want to be left hanging and have things end with her with no explanation or anything. If I was going to end something like that I would have the decency to tell the person in a mature adult conversation that things weren’t going to work out. I am a decent, loving, caring, gentle, big hearted man and I deserve an explanation as to whether we are still gonna try to get a relationship going or not. I don’t wanna lose her…I really dig this girl…but she needs to tell me whats up. Also on a different note..this weekend is the Vegas dart tourney shoot here at home..so I hope to win a trip again this weekend…wish me luck. 🙂 Well…this ends here..I will return soon..Basta.

TheCapo