Taking advantage of the good.

Things are good.

Now I realize my life and personality is that of an upside down, twisted roller coaster 🙂 But for now, we’ll take the positives over the negatives.

After taking a two year hiatus, I am back in VERY full swing of running.  It feels so unbelievable and amazing, and I can actually feel how it affects my entire being.  I’m just a more pleasant, happier person.  I am training for the Big City Half Marathon (it’ll be my fourth); yesterday I did 10 miles which is the most I’ve done since 2010.  It felt amazing.  When I first moved to Big City, I didn’t run or work out at all.  I had a few stints where I would go solid for like, a month?  And then stop.  I gained a BUNCH of weight.  Well not a bunch but like, 25 pounds.  I’m pretty small framed so it drastically affected me lol…

Work has improved.  I really like my new GM.  I don’t know if she likes me, but honestly, I don’t really care.  I kind of came to an epiphany that work isn’t going to be easy, and I’ve almost been with the company for a year.  So I feel as though I should stick with it.  At least, for now.

With the job front though comes opportunities.

I have the potential opportunity to go back to working for MLB team catering department.  It would be full time…but it takes 6 months for benefits to kick in.  So I’d have to go online and get the state benefits for 6 months.  But I would absolutely LOVE to be at the ballpark again, full time, doing things that I have really good experience in doing.  Apparently today, my boyfriend talked to the manager that I’d report to about the position.  She received my resume and will maybe call me for an interview.

Cons?  Well, it’s not associated with Mitchell’s job (he’s the Event Manager for the baseball team), but I feel an overwhelming pressure to perform.  What if I fail? I know that’s probably not the best outlook to approach this with, lol, but I’m nervous…he’s pretty close with the manager and so I don’t want this to turn into a flop.  Another con is I want to do this on my own.  I don’t want to feel as though he’s pulling things for me…  ya know?  Haha.  Also, I’d definitely, DEFINITELY have to take a pay cut.  I make such good money right now, but I don’t really like what I’m doing so I’m at such a moot point. 

I just feel as though, what I’ve ALWAYS wanted to do is work in baseball.  And now I have a potential opportunity to, that might lead to better and more awesome opportunities. 

Then there’s the fact that I watch the Food Network obsessively, and I have this crazy desire to become an executive chef.  I’m 26… too old to make these life changes? LOL.  Shit. 

Wish I could figure out exactly WHAT I want to do.  But I feel as though if I’m back in baseball, getting to be at the ballpark every day… the one thing in this world that I love just about more than anything… my mind may free and clear up. 

🙂 I’ll keep you all posted.

But for now, things are good.

(PS–Did 6 miles today and PR’d!!! [personal record]).  I ran 9:33 minute miles! 

Much love everyone,

-Elle.