Life Update (new mom stuff)

Being a new mom is amazing right?

In a pandemic?  Sure… still great.

While navigating working from home?  Eh… okay, challenging, still good.

With no help?  Ugh.

I am so, so, so grateful for our baby boy.  He is the light of my life.  But I have to say, being constantly “on” with little to no down or relax time since he was born has been pretty exhausting.  I should provide additional context here – Mitchell and I live across the country from any family, and given the pandemic, can’t exactly hire a “babysitter”… so here we are.  Navigating parenthood, as new parents, a little bit blind and trying to not lose our minds.

Today was tough.  Mitchell and I are both working from home, and trying to entertain a 9 month old isn’t exactly a walk in the park!  It’s hard.  Monday, I had meetings with some business partners, and Tarin was being SO loud.  Screaming at the top of his lungs.

Again – I’m grateful.  I’m grateful to be a mom; grateful that we were gifted Tarin in the midst of overcoming incredible challenges in our marriage.  But it’s hard as fuck!

I think I’m struggling with completely losing my independence.  I know, I know – should have thought about that when I got pregnant 😉 but it’s hard!  Weekends are devoted to entertaining.  There is no sleeping in, no afternoon naps, no afternoon outings to bars, etc.  And the constantly having to be “on” – “don’t get in the garbage!”  or, “he’s whining again”, or “his diaper needs changed.” Darn kid – can you change it yourself?  Haha.

Anyway.  I’m feeling it today.  I don’t think it helps that my job is incredibly demanding and intense -a lot is asked of me and on any given day, I have 8-10 meetings.  So that, in conjunction with being a stay-at-home-working-mom (?), is a struggle.

If any of you have tips, tricks, I would greatly appreciate them!  Trying to be the best version of myself to everyone in my life but that’s harder than it sounds!

Much love from a tired mom,

~Elle