Haha – I just paid for this + why integrity is important

Should I do a life update?  Would anyone be interested?

My story is actually relatively interesting in the past five years … I can’t believe it’s been this long since Open Diary was around!  I wrote in it RELIGIOUSLY.  Well, not religiously, but enough to be a good, healthy, creative outlet for me.

How about we do the Cliff Notes version of my live since 2014:

-Feb 2015 – Got married!  At MLB stadium, where I was still working.
-June 2015 – Had a guy try to break up my marriage.  Was almost successful. :/
-October 2015 – Quit MLB job.  WITH NO BACK-UP JOB.  Yes, my dream job.  I quit!
-November 2015 – Started working at designer retailer!
-June 2016 – Realized for me to lose my fantastic husband would be fucking ludicrous.  I came to my senses and became a better wife.
-October 2016 – BOUGHT A HOUSE!
-March 2017 – Got a rescue dog!  Who is insane.  But we love him.
-July 2017 – Got an email from a recruiter at a start up to join the sales team.  What?  Hell no.
-August 2017 – Left designer retailer. Joined tech start up. 😉
-January 2018 – Life amazing.   LOVE job.  Am surprisingly good at sales.  Life with my husband is awesome.

So there you have it!  I *could* go into details but I’ll share the almost-ruined-my-marriage story, for a rainy day and a bottle of wine. 😉

Related to my subject line – yes, I paid $40 for a yearlong entry of Open Diary.  Why?  I am not sure.  I don’t know if I’ve even paid .99 cents for an APP, let alone $40 for an online diary membership…LOL… however, I can afford it AND writing my thoughts and feelings is a GOOD thing for me.  Maybe a tad cheaper than therapy. 😉

So if you read my life update – you’ll know I’m in sales for a tech start up.  Let me tell you a little something-something about sales.  Sales can turn good people… nasty.  REALLY quickly.  And I wanted to share a little about my experience with this.

There’s a person on my team – we’ll say his name is Grayson – and he decided to steal a bunch of sales from his teammates.  Elle (me), being the firecracker who doesn’t let things go (lethal combo), decided to blow this shit UP until it couldn’t be blown up anymore.  I seriously told EVERYONE that he was being shady, and stealing sales – and my team actually appreciated it.  However, this guy is nice… and I think he learned his lesson. Anyway, he sent an email to all of us today apologizing.  I felt bad.  I probably (and habitually) overreacted.  But, regardless – he stole money out of the pockets of his coworkers and that is NOT okay.  I’m doing well this month, so it didn’t affect me as much, but there are people on my team that he is going to beat!

I felt strongly about this *until* a girl on the team below me did something that made me really question my judgment… she ultimately threw a FIT, and yelled at a coworker about a sale, and they argued like children about it.  Literally, yelling and getting pissed about $600.  And it REALLY put things in perspective for me… for goodness sake, is this really what we’ve come to?  Good people falling by the wayside and losing their own morals over $600?!

I decided to let bygones by begones, and I messaged Grayson asking him to lunch tomorrow.  He stole sales… yes, that’s bad.  But fuck… sales, sometimes, can really make you question your ethics.  It shouldn’t, but it does.  When everyone is doing well and you aren’t, you really try to get creative to see where you can make up for lost ground.  I haven’t really lost my morals *yet*, but I get why Grayson had a lapse in judgment.

Anyway – moral of the story, is to fucking have them!  As in, morals!  Don’t get petty over $600.  Or ANY money.  It’s fucking MONEY.  Yes, it’s great, yes, you should go about things the right way to acquire it, but don’t lose your shit.

And be a nice person.  Above all else.  Find it in your heart to forgive, GIVE before you take, and don’t make people feel shitty.  Period.

Anyway, that’s what I wanted to vent about today.  What an entry – damn I write all over the place! LOL.  Oh well.  Putting my $40 to good use. 🙂

Much love,

-Elle.