Bad days – all in perspective
*Sigh*. Bad days, when you have food on the table, a roof over your head, a loving husband, a full-time job… ugh. Do you ever actually HAVE a true bad day, when so much suffering is happening in the world? Not in retrospect, I suppose. So I will just go ahead and say today, was not ideal.
The one *good* thing about today is the fact that I actually ran! 6 miles on my little Amazon-special treadmill. Last I ran was a week ago, Monday. I’m a half-marathoner and I run quite often; typically 5-6 miles a day, with long runs on weekends. I was somewhat sick last week, so unfortunately didn’t have a good handle on exercise. Also, sometimes I hit these ruts where I have little to no motivation. 🙁 Is typically in tandem with my anxiety. Which has been prevalent lately.
Anyway, so today – UGH. First thing, is as you may or may not know, I’m in tech sales. So like – I sell it, to people much smarter than me. Anyway, so I’ve been doing this since June 1st, with no promise of a deal or closing anything. The horrible thing about sales is you’re on commission, right? So here I am, in September, and I finally have someone last week tell me, September is a possibility of them buying the product! I feel like I’m pretty excited… except for the fact that my immediate manager is acting like a wet mop. I speculate that him and my other coworker are colluding to jack deals from my team, but regardless – his attitude has been piss poor. Anyway, he accompanies me on this call last week with them, and then afterwards – mind you, he is on the call and has every right to speak up, I welcomed it and encouraged it to help me since I’m new – he then says I missed all these crucial things to ask, and I am unable to take this information to our deal approvals board because of it. I called him out, and was extremely proud of myself, honestly. I was like “You were on this call. Why aren’t you helping me? Or supporting me?” He says it’s because he doesn’t feel like they will actually come in this month. SO WHAT?! That’s THEIR call to make! Ugh…
Okay – onto reason #2 today was bad. So we have a pre-sales consulting team who actually sets up meetings for the salespeople. Basically, our pre-sales team have been LAZY AF lately. Their immediate managers (there are two teams with two managers) don’t ever show up to work. Constantly working from home… bullshit. So guess what? These 22-25 year olds are like, my manager ain’t here, why the fuck do I need to be? So today, I get ballsy when I notice it is 3:30 pm ON A MONDAY, and there is ONE Pre-sales consultant out of a team of 20. Yes, 1. Everyone else split! I’m like fuck it – I’m going to post this in the main general channel on our internal communication database. Ha. Everyone laughed. They were happy I said something and I had a point. However, it was super bold, it definitely called people out and made some people unhappy. I deleted it. Without having everyone see it, pretty much. Lol. It’s a whole new Elle! Typically known as the sweetheart- not today mother fucker! HAHA. Anyway, I feel kind of stupid that people are like wait why did she delete it?! A lot of people agreed, bahaha. Today is not the day to stir up shit. Will wait another day. 😉
Just writing about it makes me feel better. Frustrating things at work.
Another hilarious part about work? We got acquired – AGAIN. Yep! 3 times in a year and a half that I have been with the company, that we have gotten acquired. This time, but a huge conglomerate. So that’s fun.
T minus one week until Mitchell finds out about his cross-country job opportunity. Not sure if I wrote about that yet, but he officially flew there for his interview, which was SUPER intense. He met with like, 5 of the C-suite executives… for 6 hours. It was pretty intimidating. But I knew Mitchell would crush it, and he did. However, he found out that he was part of nine interviewees – 2 serious. The recruiter for the company said she would’t be in touch until October 1st. So that’s judgment day. This is his dream job. He, as well as I, will be absolutely CRUSHED if he doesn’t get this job. 🙁
If you can, and believe in it, please say a prayer for Mitchell and I, that the best opportunity for us as a family will arise. Whether it be in this new state, or here at home, or somewhere else completely new! It’s been a long, stressful process and we will be glad to see this come to an end.
Anyway, watching Great British Baking show on Netflix. Love this. 🙂 Nothing to relax you at the end of a rough day like sprinting 6 miles on the treadmill and listening to a bunch of Brits talk about cake.
Hope you all have a wonderful week. Can’t wait to be in a place of happiness.
Much love,
~Elle