Stupid Jerk </3

So. Richard hasnt bothered talking to me since we hooked up and said all those things to each other.

is it me, or when you said "I love you" to someone…you talk to them the next day? honestly. i called him twice yesterday and he said both times he was busy and hurryed off the phone and said he’d call me later. later never came.

right so . this is bullshit.

I did stuff with him, said stuff to him, that ive never done with anyone else. I trusted him.

I believed the things he told me were real.

and while i dont doubt he loves me, i doubt hes ready to be with me, and i dont think he should have told me he loved me if he wasnt ready.

I feel used, even though i dont think he really used me intentionally

but what the fuck else am I supposed to feel when we do stuff and he doesnt call, at all?

i mean

all i wanted was a 10min phone call

i understand he wanted to hang out with his family

all i needed was reasurence of him caring, seeing him care.

and he could leave any day now.

how would I know?

we still have really even said out loud if we are together.

BAH

*runs around the room screaming*

I feel sick

im exhautsed

my period is late ( cuz im stressed, virgin..so haha. ya)

im not even calling him today

.I refuse.

*sigh*

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