Substance Dualism
For a short while:
Time moves backwards.
We are seated on the bed, sated and laughing.
You never have been able to inhale, but there are ways around that.
And maybe I don’t know what time is, or what age is, because it’s all much less linear than I’d presumed. Not just in this moment, but in all of it.
A whole comprised of two parts, rarely in harmony – insurrection on the cellular level, warring with the incorporeal.
For a short while:
We are seated on the bed, and nothing else matters but this. Your green eyes, my sharp tongue.
And time ceases to exist.
Memories; misty water colored memories…
The older I get the more I realize it’s all non-linear. This could be the future, or yesterday, or 20 years ago. Also, very much my plans for this weekend. Aging isn’t how I thought it would be.
@the-idiot The future, the past, the present. It’s all the same. But it’s also very different. Distinct. I am not who I was 20 years ago. Or 10 years ago. Or 10 years from now. What does that mean?
does it mean anything?
@laynemeyer2
I am somewhat obsessed with progression and all the selves we can be in the course of a lifetime. Some things change in momentous, life altering ways. Some things barely change at all. Some things feel like a brief rewind.
I find my mind and my body aren’t always on the same page about this aging process, so the moments when everything aligns feel particularly precious.
@laynemeyer2
It can mean anything. &/or nothing. But it’s rarely what I envisioned 20 years ago. Sometimes it’s minutiae and mundanity. This weekend it’s a day date and a new dress and edibles.
@the-idiot While I may Mr wear new dresses, I understand the appeal. As for the edibles, it’s on my list to get into. I need someone to take that voyage with. I have that person in mind, but so far the universe has been uncooperative.
@laynemeyer2 it’s never too late to try a new thing 😂 but seriously, more about pain management now than when I was younger.
@the-idiot You make it sound very appealing. Maybe I should give the dress a go.
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