Understanding.

I don’t understand politicians, war, poverty, starvation, crime, WOMEN ( duh ) , men, cats, dogs, love, money, did I mention WOMEN, gas prices, sex without passion, love without trust, polution, the ozone, global warming, the rain forest, oprah and her bitch sidekick martha, Dr.phil, Fox news, fans of dancing with the stars, american idol, soccer, my family, your family, my friends, my enemy’s, my banker, my friends with benefits …AH HA !!!…I knew if I kept on typing out shit I’d come accorss something that I might actually want to lip off about. I’m still sick as a dog but it’s gotten to the point where if I don’t write in here or my book that I start missing it a little bit. Writing for me also has other benefits, for example I can now say that I use my computer for something other than porn and music.

It’s not the husssle and bussle thats starting to gear up all around me , it’s not the weather change or the decorations. Know how I know it’s getting close to christmas? My 2 friends start to call or pop in…alot….too fucking much! people in my life get really odd at this time of the year. For the last 3 years. Same time every year . #2 shows up or drops me an e-mail to see how things are going with me? we set up a date or two but nothing more than meeting for coffee and renting a motel room. Our "freindship" is about 95% sexual. I enjoy her company and we spend almost the entire time laughing or with a smile on one of our faces. Our sexual boundries seem to get wider and wider with every year. Last year …She…stuck her finger up my ass….Almost threw my back out I came so hard…lol. If this chick pulls out a strap on i’m calling it quits.

#1 and I are "friends throughout the year , but it always picks up at this time of year. #1 and I date occasionally , we’ll hit a movie or go see a band at a club , we like each other but realize that were horrible for each other and there are certain things that we just don’t talk about. But the fucking sex is amazing, sure some nights don’t turn out to be the stuff romance novels are made of and I swear that was the first time that ever happened. ( Way …Way too much jack daniels. ) Our bodies just fit, thats the best way I can describe it , we fit.

The three of us are all complete wrecks in our own sort way which is nice…it’s like group theapy.

Think thats enought for tonight, heads getting a little fuzzy …If I ever meet the person who invented neo-citren, he’s getting a big hug…if it’s a woman she’s getting felt up.

Later fuckers…(cough cough)