10/11/06

I don’t know how you did it , but you did it.

 Now you can fucking stop it .

 There comes a time in a mans life when he must put his foot down and put it down hard….This is one of those times.

I can’t believe you , you knew how I felt. You knew exactly what I was and wasn’t looking for. Did you care…nope, you went ahead and did it any way …And now where am I? Staring straight down the fucking hallway at a door marked " NO " . I know that the door marked "YES" is around here someplace but somehow you got me facing this way. So how did you do it ?

An even better question might be "when" did you do it ? When exactly was it that you crept into my head?

 I know your in there hanging out and putting yourself near or into all my thoughts. Odd thing is , that this doesn’t feel new, not that it should, we’ve know each other for 20 years. Hell maybe you’ve been in there since the first time I saw you. Walking down the hall asking anyone that would listen if they knew where the class you were looking for was located. Then saying "for fucks sake !" when you realized you were standing right in front of your classroom door. Thats it …the first moment I remember of you. man i fucking loved the 80’s and the girls in skin tight jeans. Later that same year we went out as boyfriend and girlfriend for exactly 5 days. Our first kiss was on the 5th day …A few hours after you had dumped me. You wouldn’t kiss me while we were going out , but you did after you dumped me. Never really understood that . Anyway you and I stayed friends, and have watched each other go from one failed relationship to another. Somewhere along the line the idea came about that if we were still single when we’re 40, we should get married. You brought it up a little while ago . As a matter of fact I’m starting to see the whole picture …you’ve been planing this for 20 years .

Ah Dammit !

How couldn’t I have seen this happeneing…I’m going to end up marrying you aren’t I ? …Fuck ! …I’ll probably be pretty fucking happy too won’t I ?…Double Fuck !… I’ll probably look back and say we should have done it sooner to someday…Fuck Fuckity Fuck !.  Man i hate the 80’s and the girls in skin tight jeans. Fuck you Calvin Klein!