7/28/07

absent from your thoughts … but this is familiar territory

i dont think i would know what to do if that where to change.

Im not sure why it is i look for something that just is not there … that has never been there … that im not even sure i want to be there

why keep holding onto a past when it was something that i didnt want then.  actually i dont know what it is i want, but i know that i am tired of games, i am tired of being told one thing and then shown another to only be told something totally different by someone else. 

so .. to move on from my criptic talk …

i am enjoying my weekend, went shopping last night with gil … she has been sick for a week or so, arnie and gil hadnt been seen each other in that time let alone speak much, so it was good to go out, we only went to just go to target, but we ended up shopping for a few hours.  I bought a skirt and a shirt for work, got them on sale so that was cool, also bought the 2nd and 3rd harry potter books, i had never bothered to read them, always just watched the movies, but maddie bought the last book last week, which i read the last chapter of, i like to know the endings to things, so since i read the last chapter maddie said i had to read all of the books from start to finish, so i read the first one, during the week, discovered that i like to read in my lunch break, so bought the 2nd and 3rd books last night to continue on.  Im sure i bought something else but i cant remember what … then this morning i got to sleep in, then went over to gils, her nephew and brother where over, max will be 2 in a month, and he is just the cutest little boy, so so adorable, makes me laugh all the time, and he is so bright, we were playing with his trains.  Then gil and i went shopping, was again only meant to be a short trip, gil was looking for a book that we couldnt find last night, so we went to frankston to look for it, which she did manage to get, but once again we spent ages there, i bought a dvd, stick it, which i am watching now …   i really just feel like taking it easy this weekend, rejuvinate a little.  Tommorow i plan to just chill out and do scrapbooking and watch dvds with maddie.  I have so many photos ready to do and just havent had the time to do anything with them,  So maddie and i have planned to spend all tommorow chilling out watching dvds while we scrapbook.  It will be good, havent done it in ages and i feel a whole lot of creativity bursting to come out.  I actually need to try and work out how to photograph some of the pages that i have done because i want to submit them to one of the magazines and in a competition, but everytime i try to take a photograph of one of the pages it just never works out, its either too dark, or the flash bounces of the surface around it and makes it look funny ,,, going to have to work on that one.

well .. its nearly 11 and i have become a boring old nana so i best get off to bed.