04/07/2009
I feel so highly strung and emotional, and ofcourse I am dealing with it in the most professional and grown up way … yes – throwing a tanty at people such as my boss.
I dont understand how i get so worked up and upset over things that i cant even explain to myself, yet i can stand there and bitch and moan and complain to my boss making him feel bad about not giving me the time that he should and not replying to my messages that i send. So yes on a good day, 9 times out of 10 emotions trump logic on all accounts, but lately, this is just tenfold. And i hate it, i hate letting emotions rule my actions. I hate letting the world see this more so. I hate being weak, i hate being vulnerable and i hate not knowing whats causing these feelings to begin with.
I wish i came with a user manual so i could look up the relevent chapter and know what needed done to fix myself.
I agree. Sometimes I wish I could too – although. As far as emotions go with me… I seem to be more numb lately. I haven’t lost control of myself in a time and place where that’s supposed to be all I want to do. Maybe I’m getting better? *hugs* thinking of you.
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It is incredibly ironic that not only did we return at the same time, I feel exactly the same way. It seems like I am arguing with people for no reason. Maybe crazy is just in the air? Who knows. r: before I read your second line, I said the exact same thing. lol
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