sorry

sorry
two syllables
holding myriad meanings
depending on the way you see
the truth

[1:54 pm]
I’m not really upset, I’m not angry, I’m not anything aside, perhaps from slightly disappointed and blah about this until I’ve had more time to roll things about within this peculiar bowling ball we call my head.

Without looking back, I can’t tell if I’ve mentioned that I was potentially up for a promotion to the lead position on my development team. I’ve been working for some time in rotation with the other candidate for the job, and had thought that I would likely be a solid lock for the promotion after five years with my company. I spent five months doing my portion, and then the other candidate has been in the post for three…

And this morning, the tech lead on the job pulled me aside to let me know that he’s giving the position to the other person.

The flip side of this is that I’ve been offered the position of taking the lead on our ‘dedicated applications’ division when there’s actually a need for it. This would involve work for something other than our current client, which would allow me to have some interesting flexibility with work (including some telecommuting)… but the hard part is that until there is such work, I’m now reporting to yet another person who has been in my company for less time than myself.

I mean, yes, it is a step forward, but… the waiting continues. No matter how you look at ‘sorry’, it shifts with the turning of the prism…