October 5, 2005

Sometimes I feel stupid

I feel really stupid when I go back and look at some of the stuff I’ve written in here, like the last couple entries blah. Kenny and I were engaged for like….a month, then everything went down hill, but yah, um…I didn’t love him..I kinda just hoped that I did, and that sounds so bad, but I think sometimes I write stuff to try and convince MYSELF more than ANY ONE ELSE. But, YEAH, I really need to keep track of this thing, so I don’t have to go and explain why everythings so different from the last time I wrote months ago lol.

just_a_ghurl

hei…yeah sometimes i rite shit in mah diary that dont even make no sense..hahaha…

interesting, i go back in my diary & read to feel the emotion i felt at the time i was writing it, so the poems actually explain themselves i believe, but beliefs & feelings are constantly changing so don’t feel the need to explain, if you were always the same you wouldn’t expand and grow as a person, laterz & good luck…….

B Man

October 7, 2005

Melissa I don’t know if I told you this but… I LOVE YOU! Have a nice day.

Hey, there, sorry I haven’t called in so long, but I just got a job at Arby’s & I’ve been busy like crazy. I don’t know when my next day off is, I’ll find out tomorrow, so I’ll probly give you a call either tomorrow or my next day off. Anyway, if that’s too long of a wait for you, give me a call. My number is 291-5818. Later. Muah. (That’s a kiss)

wow I’m leaving a NOTE. I’m so used to calling them comments now. OD flashback, wow.