I’ve given up

I’ve given up on trying to update all my readers, yes I’m talking about you guys Becker and Brandon lol, about my love life. Because…hey..it changes daily. I’m single again. And probably am making a big mistake. Not by breaking up with Brent, because even though he treated me exactly how I should be treated, I just didn’t feel comfortable with him…I felt awkward around him and its hard to explain. The only person I’ve felt a closeness to lately besides Kenny lol, is Andy. Which shouldn’t be the way it is, but it is. I’m not gonna defend him for what he did, because he DID screw me over. And then we both ended up hating each other for a while, I hated him because of what he did to me, he hated me because I ended up dating his friend, except he didn’t really hate me..he was just more mad at himself because this was all his own fault, and he was mad at Brent for not being a good friend I guess I dunno. We didn’t talk to eachother for awhile..then out of nowhere on Friday morning at 3 am my phone rang "Butterfly" by Crazytown and I was like…what…thats Andy’s ring, so I woke up and answered it. And he just started apologizing and all of this stuff and saying how sorry he was and stuff, and I had already forgiven him, because I forgive people so easily. He was drunk, which he said is what gave him the guts to call, he told me that he was too stubborn to ever call otherwise and whatnot. But I ended up going to pick him up and drove around for a while, til he had to break back into his house. We ended up parking at Belleaire Elementary School and we got out of my car and just laid down in the parking lot and talked for a while, it was cool. He was like "..I’ve missed hanging out with you" it was endearing, and he asked what I was doing the next day and I said work 1-7…but I ended up going over to his house at like 1030 am for a couple hours. He’s so funny. I don’t know why I’m so freakin’ attracted to him and all that. I know he’s a player, right? Right. But, yah, when I left his house he had told me to call him after work. So I called him, and he didn’t answer, and then he called me back at like midnight-ish, but I wasn’t really paying attention cause I was in my car with Matt and Brandon, going to the strip club lol. It was fun times. But, yeah, then he ended up calling me today at 3..and I was like…what…3 PM?!?! its still daylight?!?!?! lmao he never did that before. He always called at like 1 am when he just needed someone to talk to cause he couldn’t sleep or something. So I was a bit surprised..then I was MORE surprised when he asked me to go out with a bunch of people to see "Land of the Dead" tonight…but yah, that may have fallen through. Cause he called me again at like, 6 to tell me he got into a fight thing with his parents cause he doesn’t have a job and so he has to find a job now, but he said he was gonna attempt to suck up to his parents for the next couple of hours so they might let him go to the late movie, and he was all I dunno, I’ll figure something out, but I’m going to hang out with you tonight, I may just end up sneaking out. or something and I was just like taken aback by the sentiment….it may be fake, I’m not trusting him right off the bat again lmao. I’m not severely retarded. Just mildly. So, yah, its 838 pm now, and no call from Andy SO FAR. Who knows what will happen. Could it be that I may STAY HOME on a saturday night~?!?! no freakin way. I refuse. lol.